Jesus Reigns!

AFTER A'S!!

2008-11-16T03:40:00.000-08:00

HELLO!

A's is ABOUT to END!wheeeeee! Life's definitely JUST STARTED man. Just wondering if you guys started to plan for your holidays?Cause i have!And most of you guys would know, its going to be all about church!haha. yeap. JAMMED PACKED with tonnes of events and surely, i dont want to miss out any of the excitement!

And of course,there will be time for family and friends!I simply look forward to EVERYTHING.
NUS MEDICINE, here i COMEEEE!

Lastly, i was just thinking if anyone want to sponsor my blog. Then i'll advertise for you BIG BIG. hahaha

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from good to great.

2008-09-09T05:59:00.000-07:00

It takes something more to be great.
It takes more than mere effort.
It is a test of determination.
It is a test of resilience.
It is like survival.

YES, counting down to A levels man!Time is really tight and this is the final lap when anything can happen. Its like striving damn hard for olympics and failing to qualify at the last minute. Its like failing to pass the baton at the final moment when team USA and team Jamaica ran their 4x100m. All your efforts boil down to this final moment. Nobody is going hear your complaints, hear your reasons or your excuses for not performing. Its like zhang guirong who said that shes unprepared for olympics. It doesnt matter if you're first or last, just give your best shot and im sure miracles will happen. If you give God your best, God will give you His best as well.

Just believe, dont doubt. -josh kelsey
Know your purpose of studying and finally, in closing, i'll share a verse with you guys and boost your faith and perhaps your rationale for faith.

Matthew 6:27
" Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature?"
lets have the courage to face our goliath and by faith we'll overcome .
Lets move from GOOD to GREAT.

plans after A's

2008-09-03T23:41:00.000-07:00

Here are the plans im going to do after A's.

1.im not going to devote my time to playing video games. Only when my sister asks me to. MINIMAL CONTACT WITH GAMES.
2.SAVE MONEY.LOADS OF MONEY.
3.try to find a decent job with decent pay.if not, FORGET IT.haha
4.serve more in church
5.read tonnneesss of books.
6.prepare for uni.prepare for scholarship.
7.swim
8.make new friends. bring more friends.
9.do all of the above.

aiya, ALOT LAH. i just dont want to sleeep.
i've changed the font size for lao ah peks and ah emmms.
read the post below is you hvnt seen it!

progesss.in the Name of Christ.

2008-08-21T23:11:00.000-07:00

Every step.
Every moment.
Every breathe....

For everything you do and not do, there is an effect!Dont think that by escaping/avoiding you're going to get your facts right.

anyway!that was a random thought!hahahaha
well today is 22/08/08!Speecial day!not only that chem paper 2 was easy, but also,the day when my mum and shirlene is born!hahahah so coool. very very very cool!cause i really thank God for the both of them!Without them, my life's going to be totally absolutely unimaginable. Theres so many people that i have to thank,there is simply not enough space to do it all.hahaha. But whatever it maybe,i'll give my greatest thank to God,who created this world!
I always had this thought if who gave birth to who and if my mum gave birth to me and grandma gave bith to mum then mom's mom's mom's mom's mom's mom's is WHOOO?hahaha.I believe that everyone would have this thought before. and surely, the bible says in ecclesiastes 3:11 " He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put ETERNITY in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end." yes, the thought of eternity, the thought of whens the beginning and the end. would souless animals think of such things?nahh. even IF you evolved from an animal, surely you would have ALL thought of such a thing right. I mean Charles Darwin's theory of evolution is in fact great, but it does not apply to every single thing man. Man is so absolutely different. anyways, point being, GOD IS SO REAL. the fact that my life changed so tremendously proves it all. PERIOD.

yeaps!so back to birthdays!I bought my mum a cake which my sister didnt like cause she said that its not fresh. But i just hope that mum likes it. and wenta popular with kee seng and people. i recommended a book that says, "The Reason for God: Belief in an Age of Skepticism". Yes, how apt is the title!and definitely suited for keeseng mr soh and even yulin! So many people have doubts about God and the refusal to even want to take the step to belief. Its liken to walking onto a solid bridge shrouded by thick fog. When you cant see something, it doesnt mean that its not there. i cant see you brains using my naked eye right.likewise for bacteria. The world would be perfect without skepticism!no backstabbing, no deceptions, but pure beliefs, pure faith. But of course, its impossible. In the age of uncertainties,its difficult not to have an ounce of doubt. Thats why we all should have faith!not only in yourself(because it is tooo narrow) but a larger entity!

yesyesyes. Let us draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith. And i pray that as you read this, there will tinge in your hearts to want to know more!
AND YILUN!IF YOU READ THIS,IT WOULD BE GREAT CAUSE I MISSSSSSSS YOU! HAHAHAHA. quite gross for me to say it to a guy, but yes!cause i hvnt seen you since like forever. PLEASE BE FREE AND MEET UP!

imperfections.

2008-08-17T23:27:00.000-07:00

hi guys.prelims is here!conquer it!

one friendly advice!

live with imperfections!this world cant be perfect but we always try to strive for excellence!yea!so if you cant do certain questions,quit dwelling on it and move on to those that you can grasp!

all the best!

spiritual food

2008-08-04T06:41:00.001-07:00

FEED ON THE RIGHT THINGS.

things will naturally die if you dont feed it.
for example,
dont feed your laziness by procrastinating. Get the idea?
If you feed on the things above, you naturally GROW and be a man of God.

YES.
FOOD, GLORIOUS FOOD.

JJC houses are all runners' name!

James Cleveland "Jesse" Owens
Sir Roger Gilbert Bannister
Abebe Bikila
Henry Rono

COOL UH!

blessed be the name of the Lord

2008-08-02T03:29:00.000-07:00

i used nearly half a day to tidy my workplace and compartmentalise my subjects and worksheets.Althought i felt really anxious not starting work RIGHT NOW, i know that i need to keep things in ORDER. so that work and a conducive environment can be birthed forth and FUNCTION.

then the BLESSINGS of the LORD can come.
Fire,Fall Down.
We will walk and not faint.

Off to some serious work!

THOUGHTS ARE BUILT UPON THESE

2008-07-29T04:24:00.001-07:00

God-driven, not FEAR-driven
Fear of the LORD, not fear of failure,judgment.

That's what i need to change to receive God's blessings.
Many a times, we tend to be driven by the wrong things and often feel that things are absolutely unacheiveable. It could be an impulse. It could be a thought motivated by the wrong set of mind.

Have you ever wondered why people are constantly struggling, while others have no qualms dealing with it?

its really how you approach them.my antidote is God. He's simply everything.
yeaps. so now, im depending on God to fufill His promise to me. And i believe.

Focus the Lord,
this obstacle shall be taken down.

trust God.

2008-07-26T08:33:00.000-07:00

addition->multiplication.

hey guys.it is just getting exciting here.nothing can get more fun than to study and explore new things!yes you might think its a very disgusting attitude, but studying is seriously fun. i like to use the brain that God has given me.it's the greatest gift i would want.

ahh,life's just great in the eye of the storm.
I'll keep fighting alongside with people around me and everything is going to be good.

all my might, i use it for a greater cause.
DO LIFE.

getting serious

2008-07-19T10:45:00.001-07:00

the road ahead of me has been lighted up..

& it's going to be tough. But im not going to give up even how tough i might be. Its a path God has directed me to go and i'll obey.Jesus is more than My Father,He is also my God. I see my life getting transformed. and i want and will keep on believing. He is my portion and all.

All my life, i desire to know You more.
be it a surgeon and commando. I see them coming to pass and becoming weapons and tools for God to use.

Break me, make me, mould me.
Let me be the clay in Yours hands

i know im going to make it.

2008-07-06T08:10:00.000-07:00

dreams and visions have never been so close to touch before.
i'll trust in You and burst forth in faith.
faith is about being on the attack.
& definitely, no problem is gona be too diffcult.

GIVE ME THIS MOUNTAIN!

with God's touch.

2008-06-27T10:06:00.000-07:00

there's a timing for everything.

and now,it is time for maturity.2008 one of the hardest year i've been through. But now, its still too early to say anything.
But i see ripening of harvests end of this year and now, its the season to plough. To conceive and gestate.
I see warriors, fighters and knights charging into darkness. Fearless and bold, they have victory engraved in their hearts like word engraved on their swords.

yet, another side of me manifests fear, doubts and hopelessness.
"maybe they are not going to make it afterall".
"maybe they are just fools holding on to what they make up"
" perhaps its just too tough"
"im just not strong enough"
"sigh, why cant i just choose the easy way out?"

well guys, im sure you all have these thoughts running through your mind during certain phases of your lives. We always want the best of something, dont we? However, we seem to be always caught in between... why?
i've been pondering over this question for sometime and i've met people who have had great visions[actually everybody has] and they seem to lament over that. People constantly whine and complain, feeling overwhelmed by this and that, yet at another moment, high and happy. i was like that too. But i've changed. i know how to use my mind for a greater cause and all these are possible only through God.

Some might say, but i have no qualms controlling my mind! yea, true. But can you last? Throughout my lifetime(though short one), i believed in myself. Cause my sister's like that, so i emulate after them. Soon, i found out that somethings are just too HARD. i just cudnt balance. On one hand, i wanted to friends that i can hangout with, on the other, i want to be great and mighty. My relationship with my family was bad, cause i dislike being nagged at and kept repeating the same mistakes( hoo xinyi,this might be a good part to understand your brother!) cause i just couldnt be bothered to change or tried to,but felt that its too hard. I've been juggling with lots of things and i just want the best out of everything. But i cant and my mind was constantly in a turmoil.i cried( yes, guys cry too okay.but always secretly) and just felt like shit.

But by faith,things changed. im more than a conqueror. dreams seem nearer like never before. And the faith i mean here, i not pure naive-ness, but faith that has been tested, stood still and grew.

At the cross-road of our lives now, we can choose. Everyone in their right mind would choose the former. But how its gona happen? I know my answer. Yours?Are you going to press in when the going gets tough? 6weeks to go..

Time to mature...
This time its a whole new level, whole new battle.
Im gona be that knight.Charging into unchartered territory with faith.

i know what im going to see.
I just cant see light yet.Neither can an embryo undergoing gestation...
Guarding my mind and heart with all diligence!

our lives...its more than what you see.

2008-06-11T02:34:00.000-07:00

i've been praying my family.
i feel so burdened for them because im eager to bring them to salvation.
im eager for the harvest to ripen and i can bring my WHOLE family to church.
i can just see that my WHOLE family going church together;its no longer myself.
no more mrts, but by family car.
as i think about these, tears just begin to well up in my eyes....

yea..and through the things that happen around my family, things start to Reveal.
i love the books written by mitch albom..
i've come to realise that the lives that we have and the things that we experience is similiar to our parents'. Perhaps there might be different outcomes due to different things that happened, but it is just so natural for parents to pass down their experiences to us. My life is like a reflection of what is lacking in my parents. Especially my dad. i used to complain about people not celebrating my birthdays and i would really feel disappointed if my friends forgot my birthday and long so them to surprise me. sounds silly? but that was what i felt. i didnt tell anyone cause "its my birthday, its meant to be a surprise." i always measure friendship through circumstances and one of the yardsticks was my birthday of course. However, ever since i became part of heart of God church, my birthday doesnt feel so important anymore. Dont get me wrong here, i mean i'll love to celebrate other people's birthday, but i just dont treat my birthday so important. To me, its a special day and it marks a need for more maturity and responsiblity. I would look forward to it,but it doesnt hurt even if no one celebrates for me.

yea, that was quite a chunck of stories about me, but i have not come to the main point yet! Since Fathers' day is coming, i conversed with my mum about it.
i asked her what should we do, and her reply hit me because it is the exact same phrase i would have said last time and had always said.
" why must help him celebrate?Mothers' day he also didnt celebrate for me" ( direct translation.)
then it just dawned upon me that my parents are like me too!( because i seldom talk to my parents in the past as they were constantly naggin' and demoralising me when i needed help) As i had 14 whole years living with my AH GONG, i know how is he like.
He lived for his work and seldom communicate. He is like a king in our house and everyone would please him.( although i have never seen him bursting out, i've heard stories and saw minor instances of TERROR)
he will never celebrate someone's birthday.really,seriously. i dont even know when is his. nobody mentioned about it before. And i hv NEVER witness a birthday that was dedicated to my dad.
how can i compare to my dad? i can just imagine the struggles and pain that he has to go through in his early days. He has already hardened.
( to side track abit, i shall talk about my mum)
As i was really eager to share the transformation that i underwent, i dont know when but i shared about my sucidal past and how has it changed. and my mum shared of HER sucidal past too. She said that a point of her life, her siblings ignored her,boycotted her, she hit SO LOW that she wanted to XXXXXX. i can feel it now. Her life was built upon her siblings, thats why i mattered so much. * i feel soo heavy now in the heart now*

so even an small act would make them happy.Just an act of remembrance. That's why my mum and my sister loves to remeber things about each other. My dad is more like me. Forgetting things. haha.

now about my sister.
my sister,hmmmmm, i hv yet to find out about this area of her life. But i know she is the one that remembers EVERYTHING. hahaha, sometimes really scary.

okay, actually that is all i wanted to say.
in short, WE KNOW OUR FAMILY BEST. its just how much you want your family to be saved.
and i look that these, i marvel at God. how Awesome is Him. i can see all these is because of Him. ( though if my sister sees this, she will not agree with it.) it is Him that can put all these things into the heart of a boy who never seem to love others. How can this be possible if a person speaks things negatively to a boy who would always do things the opposite way? since young i would do things opposite of authority because i didnt like to be ordered around.
*sis, if you see this, i would want to tell you, that God is REAL. and its just different if you really know Him...

and now to something else.
as i always wondered why should we read the bible and build up the logos knowledge before God can put Rhema word inside our hearts.
and God again is truely and indeed amazing.
in "for one more day" by mitch albom,
there is this part about what is an echo...
that how charley's mum still lives in him although she has died already.
about an echo. that the source has disappeared,but there is a persistance of the sound when its quiet after the source is gone....
THE WORD OF GOD IS LIVING.
Jesus is not in the natural world now, but He is living in us..
through the WORD of God, it has been MADE FLESH.
that is why the bible is so important...it is the only way that we can grow closer to God...and it is only when we are quiet inside that we will hear God's voice resonating in our hearts..its longer like something so holy molly,that God suddenly descending to Earth but really, it makes complete sense that why some people are able to hear from God all the time while some others feel dejected that God's not revealing to them.

i was totally blown away by this you know, after i read it.
i couldnt explain how i really felt to xuejun and yinglin at the library,so i just asked them to read it and typed this out...

lastly, i would like to tell you guys that mitch albom's a christian.
so his books are really.woooosh.

God's so real.

sins

2008-06-08T07:21:00.000-07:00

we all started out as infants and now we are all young adults.

some are high-flyers, some are not.
some are driven, some are not.
some are loved, some are not.
some are seeking love, some have found it.
some are moving in circles, some have found purpose in life.

what is your life built on?
is it acheivements?that you constantly seek to feel a sense of wantedness and attention?that you will one day be great and wow,"im on the top of the world" feeling? it will fade.definately. do you think you can be like Andre Agassi who won so many championships? maybe.but would you end up the same way as he did, losing in such an awkward manner. perhaps you say, i will not. but he too, im sure, is certain that he'll clinch the title and be a significant person in history...

all these might sound depressing.
indeed it is. many of us are constantly living in such a way. then they turn to friendships.but when they realise that it aint working out, its depression man.
i used to be like that.
i liked attention. people said" i hate attention-seekers" me too. i just liked to be recognised.

but how many of you know that if you invest on temporary things, the things you gna have are temporary too.

i've found the answer to fill my hole in my heart 1.5 years ago.
im not ashamed at all, for i know its real.absurd it might sound, but the answer is Jesus Christ who came to save us from our sins 2000years ago.
i longer struggle for things.
because i know theres someone who cares for me 24/7. And He has given me friends that i can really call them best friends. we fight for the same God and encourage each other. Im no longer protective of my belongings because i trust my friends.

God is LOVE :):):):)

what do you live for

2008-06-01T07:03:00.000-07:00

SIGNIFICANCE.

to live life the right way.

BADMINTON.-end

2008-05-21T06:36:00.000-07:00

Everything has come to an end..
2008 national badminton c'ships has officially ended.Through much pain,sweat and tears, we finally finished the race 3rd..and the girls 2nd.

I was thinking that why didnt God made us 1st,since we paid so much efforts, so much pain and injuries. And yea, God revealed Himself and its absoltuely His Style.Much have been covered in my previous blog entry about the value of being a subsitute and the dejection a subsitute has,but i'll further explain it.

I'm just not ready for it. Even though im equipped with the technical skills and despite many pleas made to coaches,God didnt move. He knows that im not ready.Although part of me really wants to play and glorify God,my motivation isnt totally right. I mind still mind titles and attention.But something miraculous happened today, the feeling just died.

Now i know why there is sports and why alot of sportsmen and sportswomen are successful in life.
Its the tenacity,
its with the focus,
its with the hunger,
its with the desire.
its with the discipline.

Though the end of my badminton journey in jc isnt as dramatic and wonderful as i thought i would be, it has, through God, moulded my character.

It is the beginning, not the end.
Reborned.

im over it

2008-05-06T06:28:00.000-07:00

why do i care about what people say?
i'm secure and im part of the team.No matter what role i play i know i have contributed. end of story=)
i cant wait for what God has prepared for me.
My heart is open.
Lord, like what Sister nicole said, break me, mould me, change me.
"i ask myself, what is my vision, what i believe in!?"
& i saw fighter jets preparing to lift off the ground...they are ready to engage in battle...

i desire to be one of the jets.

im just going to give the best out of everything and anything.who am i?im part of jj badminton team and whatever i play,i treasure it. Sometimes, when things are just within your comfort zone, you would feel a tinge of how others who are hanging by the cliff feels.Though nicholas is no longer part of the team, he still shows concern about the teamn etc. Through this short yet painful experience God place me through, i've quite a bit.

it's about giving your all and doing your part well.
i dont give a damn if im good or im not able to get all the glitz and glamour. i wont give a damn whatever negative comments and definitely are not determinant of my character or causing a deminution to my actual ability.
if i am a subsititute,i do my part well by being ready to replace any player that is not in their condition.
This is what being in a team is.
its surely not fighting to be in the mainstream.
its about supporting each other and progressing as a team.

the primal fear of regression or demeaning of one's ego is what i've learnt. That is to humbl yourself to serve even when you dont have the big and majesty titles like CHEIF EXECUTIVE OFFICIER, etc.Its NOT about protecting your title, its about protecting what you believe in and what you would die for.

A leader has to understand this.
A leader is also a servant; he leads and serves by example.

The mark of a leader is not being branded by a title, it is being able to influence and being able to replicate that very belief into the hearts of others and that very belief will resonate through generations......

to be a world class church
in a first world nation
with a first class spiritual atmosphere....
h.o.G.c 2.0

season starts...

2008-04-28T07:20:00.000-07:00

hi all!
its the start of seasons....the begining of an exciting adventure.
but how it ends..is how we craft it.
during this crucial period, there are lots of problems.But it is how we handle them that matters.
we may fumble but we will not fall.

By Faith we'll move mountains,
By Hope we'll keep moving,
and By love we'll stand together.

an ever burning fire.

2008-04-15T07:13:00.000-07:00

Sometimes,we just tend to overlook our weaknesses.
i remember saying more than once in my blog...but i just kept forgetting.When others want you to change a part of your life, it always feel painful and thoughts of justifications comes in.

To make matters worse, depression sets in.
Sometimes, its not living in society that is stressful but because of the lack of stress training.When a sudden downpour of such tribulations, people break. So, we must be adaptable and challenge circumstances and emerge stronger than before. How many of you know that we grow from faith to faith and glory to glory?

I've decided to not have this unquenchable pride in my heart that reasons everytime. When people do make -ve comments about you, it may not be 100% true,but definitely theres some truth about it.Extract the truths within and improve. We live in an asian society..so sometimes, its not effective to go head on when "face" matters.

Burst the bubble of pride.Reorg your life and breath out rivers of living water.

-irrelevant side note to this entry-
-its not about how you start, its always about how you end,even if the world does not see how you end.
*analogy time!* I had 2.4km on monday. i started out as 7th, ended as 2nd. Progress matters more than a desperate attempt to maintain your stance.

excitement.

2008-04-07T09:50:00.000-07:00

let my heart run with LOVE.

driven by the force which never runs dry.
i will press on.

DONT GIVE UP!
and engage!
EN GARDE!

thou shall not.

2008-04-03T07:07:00.001-07:00

In troubled times, how would you react?

would you...

-sit down and do nothing?
-complain about how hard life is and do things half-heartedly?
-whine and whine?
-get pissed and vent your anger on somebody?
-get demoralised,emo and sucidial?
OR
-REFUSE to give up, put in DOUBLE the effort and TURN the tides, Love your friends and family at TWICE the capacity, put in FOCUS and not STONE and SPREAD the excitement that you are going to OVERCOME all things?

these are observations that i've made,or rather, i've done all those. It's so easy to get disorientated in the morning and if i dont get my mind to be in tune with God's, it's double the chance of getting all negative responses and the worst is,getting disillusioned!

Let's live life the way it should be.Lay down every weight thats holding us back and run the race with grit, determination and just let God finish the work.
theres no point in saying but not doing,complaining and emo.

do it the right way,
do things the way Jesus did on Earth.
for He never let circumstances take control of His life.
neither shall we.
lets do it,everybody.

badminton stuff

2008-03-31T10:08:00.000-07:00

it doesnt matter how people look at you.

its your heart that matters.
attack life!with faith and living your life in the pro-active way.
say no to SIAN and negativity and rudeness.

crucify self-fishness

2008-03-23T08:01:00.000-07:00

what is your vision?

what do you aspire to be next time?
do you think its a very long time?
how much time do you think you have to mould your own future?
what really satisfies you?

what are you seeking and pursuing in life?what fuels you?

what is your meaning of life?

Im sure everyone would have thought of these questions before. But very often, we just sweep these questions that determines our destinty at the back of our minds and justify them with,"no time lah", "aiya next time lah"...but my question to you is, how many next time there is and is there really no time?
Or you might have already decided what you are going to do next time...

study,work,marry,enjoy then die?

If thats what you think, i think that thats really narrow-minded. I want my life to be remembered by many. I dont want to live a life of nomality and just slowly fade away.Like pastor lia, i want my funeral to be like samuel's: surrounded by the people whose lives are impacted and changed and that they will carry the flame and pass it on to the next generation. So what if i gained everything for myself? the last thing i wish to see would be to die without anyone knowing...to be just a part of the earth's soil...

Theodore Roosevelt once said, " You're born original, dont die a copy.."

i aspire to bring excitement to those around me.
i aspire to shine with the face of Christ.
i aspire to bring hope in the hearts of man.
i aspire to follow Christ and lay down all my self-fishness and individualities at the cross.

heartware 2.0.
run and protect the vision that is in your hearts

tuesdays with morrie

2008-03-14T12:02:00.001-07:00

hey all,
its been a really really long time since i lasty blog, perhaps its been busy, but i think its more of the inertia=/

nonetheless, i want to start this entry by just diving straight into the book, tuesdays with morrie.It is such a wonderful book though im 1/4 through it.

There are somethings in life which cant be explained if you say,"I need to see to believe" well,we know that air is present,but we just cant see air,we feel its presence.Similarly,you dont need to personally see God to know that He exists. His creations tells you the presence of a Creator.
In page 61 of the book, Morrie did an experiment with his class and he calls it,"Group Process". An experiment which i think most people will be familiar with,that is, to fall backwards with a person at the back supporting you.Most people will dare not fall completely because they dont have that faith to believe that someone is steady enough to support them.
However, there is this girl in the class who decided to take the step of faith and closed her eyes and fall. She was of course, unhurt. That's the power of believing.

Morrie said," "You see,"he says to the girl,"you close your eyes.That was the difference.Sometimes you cannot believe what you see,you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must first feel that you can trust them, too--even when you're in the dark. Even when you're falling" "
If this is so for the natural, this is likewise for the supernatural. God is always behind our backs and if you are going to doubt all the time, there is never going to a bridge of trust. There is got to be a time when you just simply put away the doubts and just engage the supernatural and just believe.
People often say," Seeing is believing" but i say to you,

"Believing IS SEEING."

The girl first believed and she saw that she was in safe hands.

RENEWED

2008-01-01T09:37:00.000-08:00

out of the abundance of the heart,the mouth speaks!

NO MORE NEGATIVITY.i will seal my mouth if i do so!HAHAHAHA.
ANYHOO, EVERYBODY ITS 2008 and lets LIVE THE BEST OUT OF IT.
theres always tribulations,but its how we manage them!WAY TO GO!

with God all things are possible.
thats why im full of faith,excitement and joy!because no problem is bigger than God!

WHEN CHEERI COMES

2007-12-16T09:08:00.000-08:00

Hebrews 11:3
"BY FAITH WE UNDERSTAND.."

WOW,this verse struck a chord in my heart man. it didnt struck me the first time,only at the 3rd time. and i have to thank cheeri for reminding me of that verse!
yea,i have to step out once more with FAITH and not by my own understanding.

and i have found 1 more strength in me,
in me, i found the ability to inspire others.

let this ability not go to waste.
Jesus, You're everything to me.

Vacation Bible School

2007-12-14T07:07:00.000-08:00

after 6 days of intense training,
i dare say that i have understood more about Christainty!

heart of God church, obviously, we are a church which follow after God's heart!
& i can just feel so much pain and love in God's Heart!
so i say to YOU LORD, i want to carry YOUR BURDEN,use me for i am willing!

Well,there had been many revelations these few days,so i'll share!

i was just reflecting about my life, because i felt i lost something in my life.and yeap, i know what is that!it is the excitement about LIFE! how can be consistently wanting to sleep when i have so many opportunities to do many many things! and that is really the PURPOSE OF LIFE. i just lost my vision someway along the line. In the book, your capacity in God and through charleston and dominic's sermons, i found what i lacked!

VISION!

i am not working towards my vision!that is why i live life one day by one day.How can a person be happy go lucky!he is really not going to go anyway in life!i mean, cause i USED to be this kind of person! i just wanted to be happy everyday,but i always end up doubting things and emo-ing because at the end of the day, i am always faced with mockery,because i did not put in effort in doing things like homework or just listening to lessons.But deep down in my heart,i always wanted to be great. i always wanted people to look up to me!
but somewhere along the line(again), i lost motivation and come to this conclusion, " i just want to live life peacefully,just enjoy life to the fullest" But whenever i face criticism, i simply cannot take it.However, i would gladly receive any form of praise,because i felt good(it is really because i had low self-esteem).
SOOOO, now having received Christ with RENEWED MIND, i know life cannot simply just mediocre. Because life had no purpose!if all i do is just to eat,sleep and fool around, it is meaningless!it is really not about having a great career and life,it is about helping OTHERS who needs help! My parents helped me, my teachers helped me, my friends helped me.SO MANY. but why am i always concerned only about MYSELF?

so i really want to be someone who is always there to lift people up!
there is so many things people can do,but they are just too LAZY to do. everyone loves receiving presents,but who loves to give presents? there must be someone to does it! would it be good if everyone just give presents?because everyone will receive them!step out of your comfort zone!

THEREFORE, i promise that from today on, i will sleep less and do more.

IM EXCITED ABOUT LIFE,how about YOU?
i want to be a bridegroom EVERYDAY.
for he is always excited and even if he doesnt sleep,it doesnt matter.
why do we always want to sleep?because we say, "IM TIRED!"

LOVE LIFE!
ignite your life with fire!

oh well,there is MORE i discovered about Christian Lifestyle..but i shall not tell you!
-IM A CHRISTIAN,ASK ME WHY!

11/12/07

2007-12-10T17:03:00.000-08:00

plonk plonk,
i realised that there are quite a number of people reading my blog that idont even know!But that is OKAY.i would be glad if you just say hi to me on the tag board.=)))

There are many many things to blog about.But i cant blog ALL.not enough time!because i'll be late for vacation bible school if i do so.

I realised that the macroviewer in my life is like a gift from God...it is like AFTER accepting Christ then you will receive it....or after listening to things concerning values of Christ..this is really what i feel.i just so happen to be looking through my emails because it is FLOODED and all these things just dawned upon me.
i dont know how to explain,but i just realised how much these sensible people just lack something in their lives..They might not know it,but We know. And they really have the power to influence our stand. While some others need us.Some people are simply just better offin their lives because they follow the values without knowing. it is really very lamenting to see how people are resisting God in their lives.
so im really really grateful to be in heart of God church. very very.

there is really a stark difference.BIG BIG difference.
it is pernicious yet subtle in the eyes of others.

popular is really efficient.no wonder they grow so fast.

power within

2007-12-04T07:25:00.000-08:00

let confidence rise up.
be open to discipleship at all times and learn it by heart.

let spirituality rise..

saved by Grace through Faith.
God,you're beautiful and charimastic.
love ya,MUACK MUACKS

PROPHETS

2007-11-24T09:13:00.000-08:00

oh my oh my.

when i up my spiritual level, i can just feel it! recently,i just feel so in sync with the flow!

during CG i was testing out who christine would pray for and yeas,cant get the correct person but i know its from which directions!

and MORE SHOCKINGLY,
i just hear God telling me to " Prepare for the storm next year" and WAH SEH. today's prophetic message coincide lah. PREPARATION. woots. and i really have to START NOW.

i just love God.
Lord, bring forth a new strength in me!
Blessed Redeemer.

i just love amazing grace.

dwell in Your presence!

2007-11-21T10:34:00.000-08:00

i was born nothing in this world.

so why should i be captivated by worldy affairs?
17 years,dont seem long yet it is the only days i have spent on this earth.Plenty things sure have changed!

what wrecks my heart?
i've been think of this question for quite sometime,but i think i found the answer today.

another thing i realised is that,everything will follow a person of convictions.a passion that never stops burning!

it is really when i see children learning the wrong things.i know kids can be annoying,but whenever i put myself in their shoes, i can feel their anguish.There is constantly a signal to them,telling them that they are useless. but in the book of Malachi(in the bible) you will know that kids are NOT USELESS. I remember the days whereby my parents will just leave me aside,often pushing my emotions to the limits. i cant remember the exact causes,but i always end up confused.i asked myself, "why cant i do..." so i guess i develop this excitment for new things,things that i never did before.
people often say, we use 1/10 of our brain. And if we unlock the rest with God, things will definitely get better.
back to my past, it is always the lack of understanding.and nobody gave me the answer. i will definitely not allow my children to fall under such circumstances. The world is innately evil. As long as General Paper exists, the world can never be white...it can be gray or even black.For darkness is such a powerful force that it can even corrode away the fundamentals of life...purpose of marriage, family structure, and the power of faith.

so much room has been made available for darkness to reign..so much..it is just unbelievable.

2nd wreckness comes from these. People/intellects coming forth to fight against the faith-force. They believe in only what they can see...my question to them would then be...a blind person can never be able to be smart? Faith is such a great force.
I really want to be part of this force and wipe out these faithless creatures!

i just want to shout to God,

You are my King, rule over my life,my brain. i give you my all. And use me for a greater purpose in life!

im going to be a religious doctor!

Ezekiel

2007-11-13T06:12:00.000-08:00

today is tuesday.

morning was great.i had a fun time mugging japanese.Then took TAXI to ARENA just to realise that training was at boon lay secondary school. shitty. wasted 5.30.

i felt the impact of NOT eating proper meals for training because i felt so FEEBLE that i almost crumbled into pieces.HAHA. but i managed to pick myself up!(with prayers yea) Then came JAP test. phew. it wasnt hard. luckily i managed to study this morning.

bought stuff and went home,with a waist thats almost breaking....

BUT,when i switched on my compand checked the mail, WOAH. something great happened!

here goes,

" Hey hey Junjie,

Yes, I remember the content of that particular script very well. In it, I sensed from you much struggle and inner conflict. To tell you the truth, as I was reading your script, I did have a feeling that you would one day meet with Jesus . Extremely uncanny, if you ask me. And lo! To God be the glory! I am very very happy for you. :)

[Just remember not to proselytise when you are writing your GP essay regarding a question on religion though. Heh. ;p]

Thank you very much for replying. I am looking forward to seeing you.

Hope JC life has been finding you suitably well.

God bless,
miss chew "

thats from my ex-english teacher in rv! she was one of my favorite teachers!haha,she just sent me a wedding invitation on 8th december. its so cool lah!then i just told her that i accepted Christ this year. and its great!
sometimes im just wondering why some people choose to waste their lives. INVITED and AVAILABLE. nothing else to do. But they just want to rot at home and play game. and the cycle continues for years after years. so what if i have a lvl 99 priest in maplestory? it just show how much time i spent pressing keys here and there, getting items that are virtual. they cant change much of a person's life. sigh.
WHY? Lord, let me help You knock some sense in these people's lives!

anyway, i am so in awe of the vision that ezekiel saw!
the appearance of Him like a rainbow in the sky. cool uh.
another thing that is cooler, a 40mins hymn in Da Vinci's The Last Supper. praising Jesus to the extent! he was just not satisfied with the current way the hymns are presnted man! and we so have this heart,for God made us to have a brain,not just to follow,but to CREATE. make things happen. not just things,EXTRAORDINARY THINGS!

yea.
think through guys,what are you going to do in the future?how much time more are you going to waste?

live life the Christian way!

darkness

2007-11-04T08:47:00.000-08:00

hi, its been nearly a month since i blogged....

and i'm back with more revelations than ever.
God is JUST SOOO SOOO SOO BIG and MIGHTY that any coincidence mentioned can never be so so so real.

recently,im like what my facebook said,
BACK ON TRACK.
i openly declare that i had lost my direction from promos until recently. it is really when i start to hear and feel God's voice then i know what am i doing...
it's just so traumatising...this time round, i am TRULY OVERWHELMED.
i really acknowledge the fight between the devil and God..its just SO REAL. i used to think that all these are just made up..but now,im INVOLVED.

God told me that i must watch The Seeker:the dark is rising.

and yes it is a warning!of the near future. the dark is indeed rising. and the Light needs to feel the urgency to overcome it!though the movie isnt great,but it is just so so so real now...

plain words are really indescrib-able. the shift in direction of the integration is just so glaring! it is really God. and so many people are in need of God. i really need to work hard for these people. their world is soo soo dark...i just have to set my priorities right to save these souls...
i will longer be involved in things that unproductive.

God use me to build Your kingdom,for i am willing.
i want to help those people.

in just a few hours after blogging,new revelations came!
but i'll cut short!
OUR EDUCATION SYSTEM SHOULD INCLUDE PSYCHOLOGY AS A SUBJECT.

where were You?

2007-10-16T04:18:00.000-07:00

today's GP was rather faith destructing.The work of the devil! Just as i thought today would be a great day! All of a sudden, God told me, New Level, New Devils. INDEED. i had a breakthrough today and thus, new devils came=/

the 1st encounter was when shirlyn was late. i was hoping so eagerly to preach to her about the sermons she missed and to check her life. BUT i didnt manage to do so for 1hr! it ended up being left with 20-30 mins but it was a great sermon. LIVE by pastor lia. so powerful. so tmr will be the day!

2nd encounter, rehersal scam by mr cornelius chew. i almost cannot meet up with christine! but we did=D

3rd and the hardest to overcome, the question on Where was God during black slavery. Where was he when the blacks suffered? and there have been cynics claiming that the bible is a tool of physical enslavement.[ In the documentary, 500 years later]

WELL, i cant exactly say that these are all lies. But i just feel that it a subject that is argued in the wrong way. It like arguing if Hilter's good.Yes he is good because he united the people. No he isnt because he killed many.
On the contrary, the arguement on the existence of God is turned over. As fallen creatures, we are innately EVIL, filled with worldly thinkings. The usage of Whites has sadly been used for regard ALL whites. Did ALL whites really took part in the enslavement of the blacks? I am sure mother theresa did not. And where was God? Many would have said, if God was good/omnipotent, he will do this and do that. But this will never happen if what you are asking for is just to do it the easy way. and perhaps it was due to the fact that blacks are not saved? and by allowing whites to step in, the gospel of truth can take root? all these are not known, but what i can assure is that GOD is REAL. i can feel it and so can others. The thick presence of God in heart of God church can assure anyone who believes in God.
an absence at an instance cannot prove that something is absolutely non-existent.

if people are starving to death, is there no food?
we have to search for it...the same thing applies. If people cant feel God, they just have to search for Him and the only way is through praising and worshipping! and that is when all skeptical thoughts will end. BUT FIRST, it starts with YOU. it is whether YOU want God to in your life or not.Because skeptism is an act of unfaithfulness/doubt which is a resistive force from knowing God as our savior.

no one can be sure if the church beside the acts of slavery can be on fire or not.the bible mentioned that in Revelation 1-3 the 7types of churches. A church can exist without the river of God flowing through it. Now, isnt it like NATO and UN, claiming world peace as their duty but actions are limited? ONE SHOULD ALWAYS MAKE A FAIR JUDGEMENT, FOR THE CHRISTIAN WALK IS ONE VERY MUCH LIKE OUR LIVES IN SATAN'S WORLD. if non-Christians are subjected to the common grace, then they are too subjected to Satan's lies.

Don't be deceived. If we are required to make substantiated views, dont stop halfway. See the full picture. Do not argue a thing based only on a part,but the whole picture. The irony as depicted by "500 years later" is insufficient to prove that God dont exist.The documentary itself is baised. The people making the opinions are the blacks ONLY. The same form of arguement and method to show the absence of God is blantantly the SAME. How boring can the devil get? " if god is real then this and this should not happen,blah blah blah." it is always the SAME. IF GOD, IF GOD.
there are no IFs. God is God and there are no ifs. Explore the bible and discover the richness of God's kingdom.

BUT first, have faith.

SO LONG.AFTER PROMOS

2007-10-04T07:59:00.000-07:00

3 ENTRIES IN A POST! because i hadnt been able to get online! HAHA,HERE GOES,

I just got my revelation from a normal Saturday morning and it is so refreshing. It renewed my faith and it set my direction right again.

I want to be more Christ-like, more like our heavenly father. It is time to prepare my fields for something greater. Looking at my tutee and the friends she have, the parents of their friends who asked me whether I am keen to increase my students, and the brother my tutee has, it just came to me that why Lord wants us to honor our parents. All parents really love their children, even though mine displays a love that is more subtle. It’s really hard to understand.

Then, I superimposed the situation on myself. And I asked, “Am I ready to teach my children in the future?” and of course, the answer is rhetorical. When my tutee asked questions beyond her syllabus, it just goes to show how much she desire to learn and how many of us here today often take this for granted? We often say, “Argh, how I wished I can stop studying,” and we are often thrilled by the idea of holidays and end of examinations. Yes, they are great because it allows us to take a break and build our temple, our body. However, many of us do not make full use of the ample time to do great things. I just can’t imagine life when we stop learning.

To end off, I would just like to say that I am ONCE AGAIN, grateful to every single thing that is around me, for they define me. And I would also start practicing how to be a good father and learn as many things as possible, so that I can teach and impart every single thing that I know!

What you want, God will provide.
…do not lead us into temptation, but deliver us from the evil one.
For Yours is the kingdom and power and glory forever. Amen!

Hi everyone!

Two times the service, twice the blessings! It should be confession time again! For if I confess my sins to God, He’ll forgive me!

I must admit that I always try to find excuses to miss this thing and that thing because I am selfish. Yes, SELFISH. Because I want to do other things as they are more comfortable. This must be the WIDE road. The wild road is the road that leads to destruction and I don’t deny that I having been heading towards destruction. I lost myself BUT I kept going to church, hoping that I can have back my sanity. Indeed, I am sane once again!

I realized that we must be consistent in the things that we do, whether big things or small things. Especially the SMALL things. If we cannot even do small things, then God would never use us to do greater things.
The desire Is back again and consistency is the key!

It feels like this blog is dead isn’t it? Nah, it isn’t dead, despite its owner having examinations.

Though some might argue that I have plenty of time because I have been exempted from physics, I don’t agree with them. While it is true that I INDEED have MORE time, but that is the same way I have been living from the beginning of the year. Just that I don’t experience the physical fatigue as I am deprived of exercises. Without exercise, I would say, it makes you feel lethargic easily. It leads to SDSM. ( for those who do not know, it stands for Self-Discipline and Self- Motivation on JJC’s badge) But very often, it is(even the teachers say) Self-Destruction and Self-Mutilation. Why? This is simply because you tend to sleep more and lack focus, destructing your own future. As for SM, it is so, because input is not equals to output and hence “mutilating” your own body.

In this few days, I have been trying to figure out, the difference is between (Raf-fle-gians) and JJcians. And the difference can be subtle, yet perniciously there. I think it is procrastination and the utilizing of time. Observing the way worthy RJC students work is truly impressive. They really can multi-task very well and they are often seen as elites of society. I don’t deny that, though. They can switch their mind to work mode at any point of time, even when playing a game of pool. However, they are also regarded as “freaks” because they performance really well, even beyond expectations. In my opinion, these people are jealous and try to account for their underachieving performances. Most people don’t even try and perhaps due to family members or mass media, they often develop mindsets that lead to a lack of self-confidence. When a teacher questions our answers, almost immediately, we begin to doubt our own answers. This is perhaps, the undesirable product of our education system. Fortunately, I do see a shift in the way the next generation is being taught. “Teach less, learn more” sounds really awesome, but how effective is this, we would still need sometime to review it.

Next up is the notion of elites; What really, are elites? Is it determined by one’s abilities? Or attitude? I think is the combination of both.
Consider this, if a person excels in his studies but has an awfully bad conduct (especially in the area of respect for authority), I would say that person has really bad flaws. An elite should not be a hypocrite. He/She has to juggle academics and relationships at his fingertips effectively, with no room for excuses and that is MY definition of elites.

Let us now go back to the issue of procrastination. In the few months of my walk with Father Lord Jesus, CGLs, CGs , classmates and a myriad of college students (owing to Pre-U seminar), I realized something crucial and is a determinant of one’s life. It is purely the willingness to learn and not to whine, get down to work and do not delay and finally, consistency. To be successful in all areas of life, one has to fulfill these basic requirements. The more one indulges in his own world and activities, the more one will sink. (Do not misunderstand and think of the extreme) The more reluctant one wants to activates his/her brain, the more the brains are going to deteriorate.
Often caught in between excellence and failure, I dare say that the only difference between the two is quality work. Everybody has a brain and it definitely has the same working capacity as everyone. It is the opportunity and willingness to push oneself that define the parameters of brains. We are born with an undeveloped brain, the only difference being how much we can respond to things. Though some say that people are born smart, I ardently believe that the reverse is true. Just reflect upon your lives. How many times are you distracted when somebody walks past the class or during examinations? A 100% focus and receptive mind is the solution to all problems.

In the same vein, consistency is also one of the keys to unlock one’s greater potential. This is because constant revision and repetition trains the mind and retains the information. By observation, this can be well illustrated through musicians. The more they practice, the more fluent is their music. No musicians can play an unknown piece of music with great passion and anointing at first try.

Superimpose these in your life and start your engines! Do not be dismayed by your current state or be overwhelmed by the sheer amount of work you got to catch up. Learning is a life-long commitment. For with Christ, all things are possible! Don’t give yourself with anyone excuses!

(to my classmates, have you guys been faithful in collecting newspaper articles? Increasing your vocab bank? Practising mathematics? Applying physics in our daily lives? Revising chemistry?)

DO NOT LIVE TO PROCRASTINATE!

ONE LIVE,
LIVE IT TO THE FULLEST.

Which is more important? Keeping healthy all the time or learning all the time? Being healthy is good, but what is healthy if you live an empty life? Please do not let articles that compare extremists ideas (like working into our tombs) to minor things (keeping yourself healthy) be an excuse not to push yourself to the next level! Simply because keeping ourselves healthy should be our own duties and we should also protect our temple at all times! This point has been over-exerted already!

NOT TRYING IS THE GREATEST DEMISE OF A PERSON.
KEEPING TRYING, ASKING AND KNOCKING. REFUSE TO BE IGNORED!
Wait upon our Lord, fellow brothers and sisters in Christ! Do not give up, but implore God more and wage battles against the Devil.

EMERGE VICTORIOUS.

2007-09-26T23:28:00.000-07:00

i have looked through a myraid of essays and had come to know of multifarious perpectives.

gosh, the gp virus is back, although i have just sat for the paper. i just cant seem to study for the next paper though time is really tight. i studied really hard for gp but i think there is still some room for improvements!

i did this question: Examine the claim that minorities are often marginalised. i think i answered the question, but i dont have a perpective that has a broad coverage. Only depth.BUT that is only what i feel. it may be far worse. and i think it is really time for me to organise my essays,even in the context of writing blogs. i think it will be a good practise. rantings? i can always let God hear what i am trying to say. NO point talking about trival things daily. it is just too insignificant.
thus from now on, i vow to respond to issues, whether controvesial or not.HOWEVER, i might just do SOME reflections in my life. what else is there to trouble when i have Jesus as God, a friend and a listening ear!

GEOG GEOG GEOG
i want to get 5As for promos!

badminton.

2007-09-06T10:54:00.000-07:00

life just cant get any better with the Lord.

i had an arguement with God today.
i was really really disappointed by what God has for me initially.
then i pondered over WHY.
i asked Him over and over again.

BUT you know, God's plan is always so BIG.
well, today we had a match against HCI and we lost marginally. SO CLOSE.
IF i just had that little bit more of power, WE would have won. 21-23,21-15,18-21.
i was EVEN SAD-er when our mixed doubles won the 1st set and LOST the last 2.
i was so so so mad at God, for He is the only one who know my DREAMS!yet,he let such things happened.

THEN finally, He spoke while i was walking towards the mrt and during quiet time.
He said that He didnt want me and the team to WIN, he wanted us to LEARN. With understanding, sucess will come sooner or later.
He want the Team to get closer to each other-more united as a team. He also want ME to STRIVE ON. He knew if i had won this match, i'll get complacent AGAIN. AND of course to apply that to other areas of my life and OTHER'S life.

I knelt down when i reached home. and asked,"why,God WHY?"
He didnt answer so i went to do quiet time,hoping to recieve some revelation.
and there it was, Luke 11:9-13,titled "keep asking, seeking and knocking"
so yup, i know why now. God want to train my determination so that i would improve and improve, physically and mentally!
This is a war. War against evil. and it is not going to be easy.
BUT i will go on.

to arron, thank you buddy, for sharing with me and also hearing my opinons. You're really sensible and im so glad that you really quit smoking. =)
through this competition,
i've grown,yet another level of maturity.

revelation!

2007-08-21T08:53:00.000-07:00

WOAH.
its just so overwhelming.
i've been standing right in front of the current of God and that SHEER force just " RAAMP" on my face.
it's time for revelations.
i didnt plan to blog at all but, i guess i know WHY i've been laid back and slacking these few days already.
God IS SO BIG, i just cannot imagine His plans were. i just feel this NEED to BLOG, because it could just be a pinnacle of MY LIFE.

yea, these few days i hadnt been engaged in PRODUCTIVE work nor USEFUL conversations.yea, my mouth hadnt been acting normally and i DONT KNOW why i keep wanting to say negative things. plain BAD. FLAGRANTLY bad. PERNICIOUSLY BAD. ahh. its just too dirty to be typed out in actual words. then again, its not so detrimental. OPPS.i know, im using WEIRD english words that should not be appearing on blogs. haha.okay nevermind, back to what i want to say.

GOD, wanted me to be INSPIRED once again. its gotta be His plans. He knows i've been DOWN,though not showing, but deep down, He knows im kinda demoralised and slack. I've been struggling, trying to get back the hyper and inquistive ME. the one who thirst of knowledge. i tell you, its an addiction approved by God. haha.im indulging in it! i series of events!

-theres cyber wellness talk,make me realise what should i do on blog and WHAT i USED to do and WAS A VICTIM of those remarks,YEARS BACK, not virtually,but IN REAL LIFE. THAT was my lowest point. i just wished i knew God earlier then.But now, i've decided to let go of my past, REALLY ALL. even those grudges i bore on RV. but i refuse to look on the dark side, for those who light up a room is wise;but those who curse at darkness is a fool. and yes its a bible verse. and at the same time, im trying to tell ALL NON-CHRISTIANS that God is a 100% good God. have faith in Him.

-oh and this leads to the next revelation. SKEPTISM. i realised that RV system sort of produced a cynical mindset. i was subjected to it. john is. woei jye is. but im not now, cause Heart of God church changed that! so its THEM w/o me in that group. Mr soh's very cynical too. you know, sometimes its our skeptism that leads to SO MUCH mistrust and doubts, tearing relationships apart. These few months had made me learn how to trust others,myself,family and of course God. yes, i can confide in God but if i take no action, what can God do? God is looking for people who DO NOT GIVE UP. everybody FAILS. but the ones who never never never gives up, who say and actual carry out their thoughts, will suceed. whats the use of comparing? whats the use of booasting? whats the use of having your ego inflated? whats the use talking?
grades are superficial. they are merely an indicator of how much you have learnt. i was disappointed at my chemistry grade. but theres a lesson learnt.

-i told my mentee that what does it mean to truely learn. its not about grades. and that mistakes dont matter. as long as you DONT make the SAME mistakes again and again, and you understand how to stop the mistake, THATS OKAY. but what makes the difference is when you are able to understand and apply.practise can cover up that weakness.
--this is my OWN revelation. ONLY when you are able to handle your own studies then you can go on to learn more things. DO NOT be stucked in pure academics.so i have to bother to identify the problem,then work on it. the 1st thing is to even BOTHER.get pass that stage and you'll learn something.

then i was thinking of singapore's education system. was the A lowered because it is to provide us with more room for improvement? i really feel so.anyway, i got
physics- A
chemistry -A
Maths-C
Geography- C
w/o gp. and that was the overall grade for term 2 and 3. i wasnt over the moon. nor i was depressed. i felt normal. and i know i have to improve my learning attitude for maths and geography. maybe chemistry.
thats about it. i might have left out something, but i think i really shouldnt blog anymore. cause its getting late and this always cause me to be really tired the next day. QUITE BAD.
oh ya. i've upcoming plans thats really exciting.
-tee shirts for class
-tee shirts for PW(opss!im going to do it when im free-er!theres too many things to do!ARGH.haha)
-Desert Shop opening.
-Physics olympiad.
-Promos.->i can apply and learn!WOOSH.
-japanese tests
-naruto anime(oh i forgot to talk about this. the anime contributed to the revelation too, as it was about how this girl improved so much and she was not willing to give up at all costs,even losing her life.)
-MAY take H3 subject!

i hope theres more to come!

BE INSPIRED!

Sometimes,we got to sacrifice. whether the consequences may look dire. but if just follow the values of Christianity, nothing that bad will happen. cause your problems can never be bigger than God. THINK, is God trying to telling you something? is it an area of your life God wants you to change? are you resisting God? your problems are God's problems and he creates the problems. overcome and receive.
thats why the revelations of the bible is at the end of the bible!

oh the sacrificing part was inspired by 5 people you meet in heaven! mitch albom is the writer!i think hes Christian!cause his book really had some values of Christianity.

well well well,
talking so much i guess that i am once again, really inspired.

im overcoming the worst tribulation of my life, bit by bit! its really tough, but im TOUGHER. devil. go BACK TO HELL.

ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS.
i'm going for some actions NOW.
see ya guys. BE MOVTIVATED.

self esteem!

2007-08-12T10:04:00.000-07:00

yo alicia, i just hope that you will read this cause im going to talk abit about today's meeting that you have missed!

it's about leadership and how we should organise our lives so that we can have more capacity to do work!then we would have no qualms to be a high flier in school,in church and at work!because the training really starts from our age!
today's sermon is really a suprise cause i really didnt expect something like that.and BIMBOS jiehui and josh thought i dont know where is the meeting!I WAS LOCKED DOWNSTAIRS for a freaking dno how long.before sam rescued us!

well, i really shouldnt be blogging at this hour cause its time for me to sleep.BUT i want to cause my blog is lacking with VISUALS!so here are the pictures!

I LOVE THE NEW CHURCH. and yea got discipled AGAIN,cause im LATE.i just cant force myself to leave house promptly! yeap its MY FAULT for being late and thats really a bad habit.i guess i really have to change it.
I think that one of these days, somebody is going to talk behind my back.i just know it somehow lo.its a feeling and God's been telling me to be HUMBLE HUMBLE HUMBLE. you know the word " humility" keeps ringing in my head. i think i really really need to take heed if not something bad is going to happen. guess one of it would be stop telling people i got exempted from physics.haha anyway, theres another which always make me late for church is because of its distance.it always turn me off when i think, SIAN 2 hours of travelling time is wasted again. this mindset just get stuck in my mind. the reason why i chose JJC was because of its distance and when i dont see that im travelling LESS, i just whine.OH MAN. I REALLY REALLY HAVE TO CHANGE THIS.
to be honest with all of you guys, i HAD BEEN thinking of negative things,even to leadership. but i dare say that i've overcome it! i now know how NOT to be influenced by negative things.yeap and its another obstacle GONE!

with KONG before we got GUAI LAN-ED by some security guards
PEILIN! the day at ARAB eating JUICY chicken!then met her on saturday and my friends thought that shes PREGNANT.HAHA
GRAND OPENING!just wished that yilun was there!but he was so hostile and fierce, LUN if you see this, please say that you would want to come OUR NEW church okay?theres really lots of place to hang out in!
WITH PAN AND POK! AND THE GOH FAMILY!
GO GO POWER RANGERS!
JI HUI's FINGERS.she must be busy doing her stuff now!haha she got draged to LAKESIDE.LOL
EMO EMO !
DRAFT 2 is finally completed! i think i used more than 24 hours. JJ128,PLEASEEE THANK ME.

inertia

2007-08-08T23:42:00.000-07:00

i just feel like slacking today.

tv is now showing super gross mr world 2007.i think im hotter can. HAHAHHA( PLEASE LAUGH PLEASE) well,actually im quite sad that i cant go church to help out cause i have a mad 42hours of study rule!AH. but i think i dont need lah hor.hahah

just now theres this cool show, LIGHTNING: BOLTS OF DESTRUCTION. rather cool,but i dont know if such a senario would really happen! but its really an application of what we have learnt!physics+geography. actually what really intrigue me in all the studying are: electricity,magnetism,gravity,chemical reactions like qualitative analysis,manipulation of substances,acids,colour changes, explosions, landforms,glaciers, plants, volcanoes,earthquakes. so yeap.this is why i love to study.because these are really phenomenons!they just stir a feeling in me!

i dont know if i should really take up H3 physics. well, i mean i've never been that smart before.it's really the gift from God. but i never treat these gifts for granted!and i really really must learn to be humble even though these acheievments are really minute in this world.

after a few hours of struggling with inertia, God fired up my engine once again. through FRIENDSTER. haha. cos my cousin's birthday is coming and my mind is working again! then it led me to new ideas to put into project work. God is always leading my life. and pastor sy's sermon lingers in my head. its really good.

woah, theres so much so much.
but i guess action speaks louder than words.
off to do work!

Your words speak louder than this world!

POST COMMON TEST

2007-08-05T03:04:00.000-07:00

hello everyone!

its been weeks since i last bloged!
as always,theres so many things thats going around me and i hardly have time for blogging.im really serious.today is the day!and i've been enjoying today so far thanks to NARUTO.its a REAL BLAST.and i just had a fabulous day teaching my pri 4 cousin.its really meaningful to teach and see how they progress,get to learn more.its very very meaningful.i LOVE TO STUDY,i LOVE TO PLAY GAMES, I LOVE to TEACH, i LOVE AND I LOVE EVERYTHING IN THIS WORLD.i find out what am i really going to do the next time.

woah,its overwhelming and i love this kinda feeling rather than being lost and misguided, doing all the wrong things at the wrong time.

back to content!

- its been a week of total mugging and i love OUR NEW CHURCH,its so awesome and you can hardly believe that its a church!cool and happening,what else can i say!
-but i thing thats ben bugging me is that i've not been doing sports all this while and im kinda injured when i didnt work out.its rubbish.my toe is injured and its really huge.im lazy to upload the picture,maybe next time.today is my sister's birthday and coincidentally,peck hwang's mum passed away today. i feel really perplexed,but i just hope that we'll see her in heaven.

God is really very suprising,always doing unexpected things while teaching me at the same time.my life's really getting more and more dramatic.

my pal just left s'pore to macau,giving justin and i all the badminton thingy.i shal keep my faith that He will see me through new trials!2nd draft of written report is soon due.results of common test will come out tmr.
life's getting more interesting yet taxing.
BUT with GOD,

i know im going to make it.

now im going to watch "music and lyrics" then prepare the ice cream cake!
and everyone should go watch "disturbia" cause its really disturbing.
cause it scared the hell out of me!

more to come!
updates!

God's bigger than i am!
PSALMS 45:4,
"And in Your majesty ride prosperously because of truth,humility,and righteousness:And Your right hand shall teach You awesome things."
humility is what i have to learn.

life's extremeeeely ()

2007-07-04T09:39:00.000-07:00

woah.i just a few months,my life has gone through SOO MANY MANY CHANGES. life's certainly much better with a whole new purpose and of course, GOD!

since jap lessons started and guitar course gone solo plus SOW ,OGL,pre u sem and etc, life's like a total BLAST!

ahh,yes i appreciate life.
today, God refreshed me.TOTALLY. i was tired, and hot tempered today after training because i missed a total of 4buses,all JAMMED PACKED with ppl at the busstop and it caused me to be late for jap class.
the SOLUTION: TAXI.

haha,but my mind was still in quite a mess.
so i prayed. and i did quiet time in my parents' room and woah.i feel good! LALALLALAA!

the reason why i've not been blogging is due to my workload. dont get me wrong,it is just time consuming and i have no time to even switch on my computer.haha.
theres still tonnes of work undone but i wana spread my camwhore spirit and the joy to everyone.
-who says we cant have fun in the midst of being stressed and busy?

and now, PICTURE TIME!

revolution of JJ UNIFORM.it looks good right!
cailing attempts to eat me!
sian i dont look like a slut.
bedok jetty;
i got my black jeans.WOO.
i almost fell and died while blading down this place. anyway,its HOKKAOIDO IN THE BACKGROUND.
pro blader-ME.
we took millions of photos while blading and this is the decent one.
OUCH.

YAY.
everybody, lets all love life & believe in the Supernatural.

OI YILUN.

2007-06-26T06:37:00.000-07:00

i just updated YILUN.you're WEIRD.cause you look like a bird mah=D come to see me one day leh!

anyway,im kinda mugging at MACS.hahaha.no reason to mug,but just like doing WRITTEN REPORT.
it sucks. i feel so insecure if i dont check thru! its like 40% of the total.which is like ALOT??madness!

bleahs,GP sucks because i didnt read and understand that much and mr soh always uses his lesson time to scold us.BLEAH,hes rubbish. i failed my g.p X.X SIANED MAN. but it doesnt affect me getting exemption from chem and physics!woohoo,im still on my way to get it.geog,HIAS, B.better luck next time.maths i dont expect much!cos i've been always louya at it.=( BOOHOO.

jayne can always DO IT.bleah.
tomodachi-s are meeting for the 1st time tmr!
written report's almost done!
i've got a new gombak gang

&

here are some pics!

weekheng acts shy infront of the camera.nevermind,we'll bring the cam whore in him!HAHA

JJ o7s24 BUDS. we are the siao kias.

i yawned.but weekheng louya nvr capture.HAHA

a mad SARAH imposter took this ugly thing.

soon xin cam whore part 1

soon xin DE cam whore part 2.his part of the gombak gang oh i just realised, in short, its GG.

ultimate cam whorer.HAHA.
next time on court,i'll thrash him!haha.he said that he looks weird if he smiles.so he didnt.

ZONG FENG DE ARRON.

i feel like bringing sexy back again.

i've decided to add more pictures instead of typing loads!

everything's changed,cause i've You in my life!
i love each and everyday cause God created for us!

certainly,i've grown.cause i've changed sooo much! no more zi bi zhen.LOL.

school!

2007-06-24T09:05:00.000-07:00

SUNDAY SERVICE;the last service before SCHOOL STARTS.

argh. pictures!after uploading,its mugging time!

MY MEI MIE

MUG LEH.

PERVERT.

MY PAL'S A SEC 2.SOO YOUNG. im freaking LAU.

GATSBY.woooohooo,GATSBY!

cause i know that You're alive!

2007-06-20T13:09:00.000-07:00

GO SEE CHEERI'S BLOG FOR THOSE WHO HAVNT SEEN IT!

im going to purposely upload pics today at SBH.siya dint allow me to do so,BUT IM GNG TO DO IT ANW.

HAHAHA

SIYA'S THE PRO!full of potential!

ARRON'S SUPER ZILIAN.i think he's worse damn me.

im gona miss em when we go for adult service=(

MUG

2007-06-19T07:36:00.000-07:00

ITS TIME TO START MUGGING.
guess what,i only have 5days left.
this is MADNESS. hahaha

EVERYONE PLEASE CHECK OUT CHEERI'S BLOG.
ON HER PICS OF HER MUM AND DAD.
ITS SUPER COOL.

i used to be THIS.

2007-06-09T11:21:00.000-07:00

hmmm,
i've been reflecting and thinking bout the past,present and the future and i am starting to see the bigger picture!
i really letting of my dreadful past and embracing whats ahead of me.i am filled with the LOVE of the LORD. SOAKED in it.

it feels like a sudden revelation.i saw how self-centered i was before accepting Christ.how disgusting i was as person in my behavior,what i had said and what i have been thinking.it is just so sick can.

i didnt really care what others said.so long that it doesnt concern me,i cant be bothered even though i used to pretend that i really cared.its so different now.i really want to spread the love that Jesus has given me.

this june is surely,the month of breakthroughs.i can see tonnes of souls getting saved this month. more visions.more power.more stamina. 34!is the number!

ok,i'll share more bout my life yea.
i used to whine bout this and that.and got easily depressed.i really thought that nobody cared for me for a period of time and thoughts of sucidal came through my mind.secondary 3..yea.so young and naive.
all of a sudden,while inviting friends to church,Jesus shed some light on what i was doing.i did it for Him and He in turn opened my spiritual eyes. i really began to appreciate the things around me and the msg that kongtat sent to christine a few months back came ringing in my mind!"i would not take all these i have for granted."
indeed.we always say we mustnt take things for granted.but these words get forgotten soo easily.
my parents and sister who actually love me so deeply.yet i took it for granted and blamed them for not caring for me more.im 17..its not too late!=Dso its payback time!its just me who refuses to open my heart to them.keeping too much junk in my brain and having negative thoughts.i need to delete them permenantly.hahah=)
my friends..i just need to talk to them more.if i didnt put in effort to talk to people,why would they do the same right!silly me. alex was right!sec 3 again!hahaha!

well, im embracing life now guys!
JESUS,i love You so much! i will not doubt,i will be BOLD and courageous.
oh Lord,You're my strength.i will use Your blessings wisely.
Oh God, i pray for the supernatural.
breakthrough.

june hols.

2007-06-04T10:16:00.000-07:00

i've decided to take some time off to update you guys about my life.HOW COOL can thate be!=DDwell later i'll upload more pics from pre u seminar to make you all oogle with envy.

well,the reason why i didnt blog since the day i came back from pre u sem is because i cudnt really find the time to do so ah!last week was spent on tests and more tests,and of course emerge and church building fund pledge day!i'll pledged an amount i had nvr given before because i just wanted give.now i cant wait to give it!
then this week,its still tests.JAP test.SO TOUGH CAN.i've been studying the past 2days to try to get 12lessons just for today's written test.but i guess me and my friend wont do very well in this paper.so we must buck up for tmr's listening and wednesday's oral!=D

I'LL OVERCOME ALL ODDS.

i'll be breathing again very soon yea!redrain concert is coming!i want not 7 friends but 17!all the tickets i have!

well,i still got alot unfinished business lah.PW,maths.eww.i dont know what my leader's doing.we appointed her because im too busy to plan out meetings!yet im the one telling what to include in a meeting and i've yet to receive the official notice from her.we are sooo going to fail lah.

pray.fast.breakthrough.
here are more pics!+D
look at ENLOONG
in tights!

OUCH,that hurts!

pre u sem 07

2007-05-25T21:00:00.000-07:00

WOAH,i dint regret going to pre u sem this year.it was soooo tough not going school for 1 whole week!but im glad i made the decision to go.anyway, i cudnt back out cos there isnt replacement for me.HAHA.i've made alot of new friends and some of them are my friends' friend.freakingly cool.though it has been sooo tiring thruout the whole seminar,its very enriching as we got to discuss issues and the prospect of singapore's future.very enriching!it has also generated much awareness in us.
and its like so high tech.i really like the use of I.T to do all the project work and doing presentation.it really depicts the direction of singapore is heading.its soo cool=)

one week of school can never be so entertaining.
i dont know who to thank in particular,so i thank everybody in SG 10 for making my week a fabulous one!
XIE XIE!i will never forget you guys!

oh yea,i love my God.for he has given me soo much motivation in life!i love studying.how cool is that.to love what you used to hate.yeap,we shudnt bear any hate for anything.let's embrace everything we do!

im soo disappointed that out of the 10 msges i sent,NOBODY actually replied.are they truly my friends?im beginning to doubt.or im just a superficial being?should i put in more effort to understand my friends better?yea,i think thats the only way. i seriously need some breathing space.haha.

BYEBYE MARIA WILSON!i didnt know you are leaving today!if not i would have sent you off!=(i hope you will love your new environment!anyway,we can see each other online!USE WEBCAM teehee=D

another tough week.i want to do well.

busy

2007-05-17T09:10:00.000-07:00

oh finally i can use blogspot to update!haha there is something really wrong with blogspot,well nevermind!

hmmm, these few weeks i have learnt alot alot alot!and they are very valuable! BECAUSE,after thinking through of what has happened! IT IS WHAT I HAD BEEN PRAYING FOR ALL THIS WHILE.i prayed that i can overcome the fear in me.the lack of courage to make the 1st move. and to cope with my hectic schdule.im seriously very busy.not joking!

God has used many people around me to guide me,to help me overcome the obstacle i faced,both on court and off court. Being raised in a typical asian family, i embrace the culture of being humble.This often leads to a lack of self-confidence in myself because i always belittle my acheievements OR when i fall from higher grounds, i think that it is impossible to climb back again.after yesterday's match with RJC,i had a lot of revelations. It made think that it is POSSIBLE to fight with the best brains in Singapore, head-on, without having the slightest intimidation from them. Seeing how haodong and yuhe fight, it promulgates that JJC has the capacity to triumph over RJC. We should all stop assuming that this or that player is SBA player and therefore too strong to play with, let alone from china.

such an excuse is DECLARED AS INVALID. if it was the old me,i would have jolly well accepted that fact.

although some rj shuttler claims that our player had won their single through sheer luck, it seems to me that he is too boastful. haha, however, this would no longer bother me.i believe that as long as i keep my desire to fight,having the willingness to be the best of what God has appointed me to do, all things are impossible. because "with God, all things are possible".

now,facing the lastest obstacle, PRE U SEM. it seems to me that it fits nicely to my schedule AGAIN. tsk, i need to do alot of catching up! SPAs and TESTS! totally madness. almost ALL the tests and my SPAs are on the LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL.totally SCREWED.
then again, " with God, all things are possible"

therefore,
I WILL PASS THIS OBSTACLE.

whatsup!

2007-04-30T09:22:00.000-07:00

i felt rather nostalgic as i looked through blogs and blogs and RVBT blog! then thoughts of the past rushed into my mind again..sigh.
BUT THANK GOD FOR HELPING ME TO SETTLE MY HEART IN JJC.
woah then i just realised that i have been doing so for the past 2hrs.so its about to recuperate!im still sick.yucks.cough and cough. i this man.
im quite worried for the lectures im gng to miss next few weeks because of badminton competition.oh gosh.i hope that people will really help me lo!

as i lift my hands, pour your mercy oh God.

im giving my all.

im gng to be a sports doc.

jc life + Jesus!

2007-04-17T03:54:00.000-07:00

I NEED TO PLAN MORE! to increase my capacity to do more work!YES MORE WORK!

I WANT TO BE A PILOT!

Jesus, you're my sole provider.

,,,,,

2007-04-13T08:06:00.000-07:00

THE 5million mega tonnes of my lips and tongue just refuses to work when the time comes. the grossness of this hABIT is still in me. how i wished i would quickly dispose the ABIT, BIT and IT of HABIT.
guess i just need MORE TIME.
PI is RUBBISH,because its a waste of time because my group may not even work on the same person as me LAH.i spent for much time to type one then i realised its WRONG. but heng, i discovered it early.HAR>

anyway, im super in LOVE WITH TEAM JJ BADMINTON. i just had to declare this message to everyone AGAIN. i think this can jolly well be the sole reason why i stayed in JJC bah. well, the fixture is OUT, we'll playing ith VJC, SAJC, ASC(I),SFMH(i dont know is this correct).yeap, should be all for the 1st round. im quite positive about this! HOWEVER, somehow i just got to get rid of this mindset of mine. that is, being afraid to be laughed at IF i asked stupid questions. actually, i dont ask stupid questions very often.but i dont know why i just cant do so in front of many people or when a person looks more hostile. to myself: please, ask questions if i dont understand. ASK ASK ASK ASK.

yoga is rubbish. its unhygienic.i dont even know if there will be nose shit flying out. HAHA(ask jjc ppl and you'll know! HAHA) but it maybe rather good,for SOME of the postures lah.

07s24= a crazy class. laugh and laugh and laugh. but when it boils down to studies, we are serious people. i bet we'll do well! PROGRESS, people. pRoGResS. joseph is a very nice person!he isnt a simple person!hes been through quite alot!well,i'll get to know him more as time pass!=D
hes a God lover too:)

everyday, i draw closer to You ,Lord
I long to see Your Face
and hide in Your Embrace

I'll never be the same.

woah

2007-04-07T08:46:00.000-07:00

i've decided to take a break from studying and start to blog!so i'll make this snappy and get back to work!(because i was struggling with a question terribly)and you know what!God asked me to eat 1st then after that i will know the answer. at 1st i didnt want to listen and i try to solve somemore.but my ans were all WRONG. so i took heed. seriously,its AMAZING. i really knew how to get the answer using a different approach because of assumptions made earlier that caused me to get stuck!

alright, this week this yet great and demoralising.
i just got a new doubles partner and im elated like siao.maybe God heard my complaints and saw my incapability in playing singles. im really not good at singles.slow and clumsy. its all SOO sudden and SOO perfect.it doesnt seem real at all. shixian didnt want to join badminton initially.then after he joined,he became my doubles partner.im happy,coach's happy,everybody's happy.i really look forward to more trainings with shixian!we'll be the best doubles in the world!=D
it was easter yesterday! it was fabulous cause it made me forget all the worries i had!and God assured me through many many of His children.and im really sooo happy that yilun and weizong did not pangseh me!unlike people who said that they would turn up and gave excuses. honestly,im sick of messaging people.they always give crappy excuses.but on the phone,they seldom do so.perhaps i shld start using a different approach.
i soo glad that i went to KL and built relationships with rvbt juniors.now its soo easy to reach out to them!
next week,i pray for at least 10 ppl to turn up.it does not need to be a special day to bring so many ppl.

yes LORD,i want to be closer to You.i want to hear Your voice.i want to feel You.
i love You. saying Grace these few days had nvr meant sooo much before.i think God wants me to treasure the things around me and not take them for granted.
its a priviledge to be able to pray.

i need more and more of You.
i know You will help me pass this difficulty.

thank you.

2007-03-29T07:19:00.000-07:00

NO MATTER HOW TIRED I AM,i still have to do some thanks giving.

i really hope i wont miss out anyone ok!
it is not based on the order of merit!because its based on memory.
THANK YOU TO:richie,christine,josh,marcus,xuejun,shirlene,shirlyn,shanny,jack,rina,changsheng,pearlyn,
calister,gwendo,boon,kyson,mr leow,jiehui,yinling,khng yinling,bing xiang,jonathon,bestia,zheyuan,justin,meiqi,joseph,zhanhui,hweeting,xian wen,angelina,weizong,yilun,melissa,rachael,sinee,sheih yiin,siyuan,celest,jennifer,keeseng,yu feng,suhaimi,cuthbert,gerald,woei jie,john wu,mao shan,louis,daniel,yuting,sijie,elvina,shawzi,aaron,nicholas,zane,boonkheng,mingxuan,kianboon
sijie, xinyi,swenson's people,yvonne,sixuan,peilin,lizhu,jingwen(cousin),jingwen(jj),khai enn,jinguo,DOMINIC,alvin lum,maria wilson,jayne,bong,desmond,tess,joycelyn kam,tian wei,theresa,ivan,ee chow,kimberley!,junhao,zhen xiang,juen kiat,jiang jun and -----------JESUS.
i hope that i didnt miss anyone out cos its really based on MEMORY.

i have received some cards,bears and cups. and i appreciate them alot alrdy! =D xie xie!but the most impt thing i received this yr is the gift from God!WOOHOO.
plus he removes my nightmares!i dont dream of weird stuff ANYMORE.i love God to BITS.i've been sleeping very late lately cause of training and some work. my new GP tutor is pissing me OFF lah.cant he be NICER!.

oh sian im super deprived of SLEEP,i think the toal hour i slept in these 3 days is:14hrs. although im mentally FIT,my flesh isnt.so sian!BORING.i want to do work but i just want to sleep sooo badly.

I LOVE JJ BADMINTON.ROCKS TO THE CORE.but im still darn LOUSY.louya like a piece of shit!COME ON JJ,KICK SOME BUTTS!
PIAK PIAK PIAK!
im going to win coach hayden SOMEDAY.HAHAHA.
i gotta to be VERY AGGRESSIVE,POWERFUL,QUICK AND AGILE,QUICK WITTED,CONFIDENT,ALERT AND TACTICFUL and with God's touch it will happen!.i pray that new friends will come to my church and eventually accept Christ.i pray that i will be able to juggle my church events,school work and badminton WELL.i pray all these in the name of Jesus.AMEN!

AND YAY!new addition to JJ BADMINTON! SHI JIE!weets.hes from ACS(I) BADMINTON!WOOTS.

everything will go well.
JJ badminton team is going to be the champion.no doubt about this.

my birthday!

2007-03-28T08:27:00.000-07:00

28 of march has always been a special day because it looked very special on the calender.

and this year was brilliant!
i need to thank TONS of ppl but im feeling very tired now!so i dont think i will do so today!

GOOD NIGHTS.

2007-03-27T08:23:00.000-07:00

REFER TO KIM's BLOG FOR EXCITING DETAILS ON 6.1 GATHERING! WOOOHOO.

there will be revival in JJ!

OG 6

2007-03-15T07:47:00.001-07:00

HEYYA!im blogging once again! i cudnt find time to blog UNTIL now!so rocks!

the Orientation Camp 2 i FINALLY OVER. it had cause sooo much disruption to my life loh!but its really worth it as i made a lot of new friends. i have never ever been thanked so many times in a day before. At the last day of the camp, i felt so happy. i know its a noob word to use but at that moment, it is the only word i think best fits the situation. admin day, day 1 and 2 was like a total disaster. Luckily my OGLs were kind enough to lend me a helping hand every now and then during the camp. E-web was very sucessful! and it is because of bing xiang and marcus that made it possible!when im emo,i seriously dno anything to say.

OG 6 simply rules!

mr seah said that im the 1st person he know of that came to JJ frm rv that is so quiet.normally they are rather vocal. i guess that its just how i had gone through 4 years of my life in RV that caused me to be like that. I used to be rather vocal and had rather high self-esteem because in my primary school, getting 255 was rather impressive as there were always very few students that were able to attain such a score. But after i entered RV. i had to be quiet and i am simply not good lo!all the bad expriences in my life came from RV! SIAN.

so i really look forward to a new beginning like now, in JJC.

& OH! DOM's my new bud! hes freaking cool!haha!and i have nvr told someone soo much of my life before.its like near everything!although i had told some other people before,but this time its really very explicit!haha.we watched STOMP THE YARD on 15/3/07 cos its like 12:35! and with FIFI too! shes the most happening recuperating patient cos after she has been discharged from the hospital, she has been out for very late!hahaha. but i still feel a bit disappointed for not being able to visit her when shes in hospital=(

anyway, i miracle did happened TODAY!
i was so so so scared that my training will clash with revival meeting.then today coach told us that the timing has been changed to 10am! which means that i can make it for the MEETING.WOOHOO. i wasnt able to participate in a couple of events because of the odd training schedule.it was supposed to be 10am since wednesday but there were plenty of amendments. UNTIL FOR FRIDAY.its like RESERVED FOR THIS DAY lah. and its all thanks to christine and josh helping me pray that training would not clash with revival meeting!PHEWW.

I SIMPLY LOVE THE LORD!

dom's a lazy pig for he refuses to wake up and keep on instigating me to pon training.

MUSE! PHYTHON! TNT!
WHAT?LETS STOMP THE YARD EVERYBODY.
its a great film.SERIOUSLY.
its a fortune to have a natural blur look sometimes=/

2007-03-15T07:47:00.000-07:00

HEYYA!im blogging once again! i cudnt find time to blog UNTIL now!so rocks!

the Orientation Camp 2 i FINALLY OVER. it had cause sooo much disruption to my life loh!but its really worth it as i made a lot of new friends. i have never ever been thanked so many times in a day before. At the last day of the camp, i felt so happy. i know its a noob word to use but at that moment, it is the only word i think best fits the situation. admin day, day 1 and 2 was like a total disaster. Luckily my OGLs were kind enough to lend me a helping hand every now and then during the camp. E-web was very sucessful! and it is because of bing xiang and marcus that made it possible!when im emo,i seriously dno anything to say.

OG 6 simply rules!

mr seah said that im the 1st person he know of that came to JJ frm rv that is so quiet.normally they are rather vocal. i guess that its just how i had gone through 4 years of my life in RV that caused me to be like that. I used to be rather vocal and had rather high self-esteem because in my primary school, getting 255 was rather impressive as there were always very few students that were able to attain such a score. But after i entered RV. i had to be quiet and i am simply not good lo!all the bad expriences in my life came from RV! SIAN.

so i really look forward to a new beginning like now, in JJC.

& OH! DOM's my new bud! hes freaking cool!haha!and i have nvr told someone soo much of my life before.its like near everything!although i had told some other people before,but this time its really very explicit!haha.we watched STOMP THE YARD on 15/3/07 cos its like 12:35! and with FIFI too! shes the most happening recuperating patient cos after she has been discharged from the hospital, she has been out for very late!hahaha. but i still feel a bit disappointed for not being able to visit her when shes in hospital=(

anyway, i miracle did happened TODAY!
i was so so so scared that my training will clash with revival meeting.then today coach told us that the timing has been changed to 10am! which means that i can make it for the MEETING.WOOHOO. i wasnt able to participate in a couple of events because of the odd training schedule.it was supposed to be 10am since wednesday but there were plenty of amendments. UNTIL FOR FRIDAY.its like RESERVED FOR THIS DAY lah. and its all thanks to christine and josh helping me pray that training would not clash with revival meeting!PHEWW.

I SIMPLY LOVE THE LORD!

dom's a lazy pig for he refuses to wake up and keep on instigating me to pon training.

MUSE! PHYTHON! TNT!WHAT?LETS STOMP THE YARD EVERYBODY.
its a great film.SERIOUSLY.
its a fortune to have a natural blur look sometimes=/

wednesday is also a killer.

2007-02-28T08:03:00.000-08:00

<12:04>, this is what my computer's clock is yelling at me now. i just had to blog about today because its simply too important.

before i start, i want to "thank" that kyson so scaring me because he just greeted me with a big bang!he threw his body on the not so heavy door and BLAM! plus i was about to open the door!goodness, but somehow i had a premonition that something like that would happen but i didnt expect its him. haha, almost died of a heart attack.

OK, TEAM JJ had the FIRST gym session with coach hayden on 29 feb 07. it was simply full of suprises. i dont even think i can lift a pen tmr man.its really " ghostly kind of trg(pls translate to chinese)" i shall not eleborate much cos i need some sleep! but the best thing is that i managed to endure the half bridging!whereas the rest, i wasnt able to complete them nicely cos i needed help for arms lift and biceps curl. and i really hope that i can do double skip non stop one day.im seriously lousy at it.
in short, gym training= hellish training to the power of 2.

then mr seah told us that trgs is going to increase to 5 days a week!oh my goodness.i've only done so in KL w/o hwk.but now its completely different!but i believe i can do it!then i heard them saying that there might be a player that is going to be provided w scholarship through badminton or something like that.means hes ultra pro! then, i think i wun have the chance to play third singles this year alrdy.how sad:( but not confirmed or whatsoever,cuz i eavesdropped!HAHAHAHA.anyway, as i had mentioned early in this year's entry mr koh is a nice principal so dont dislike him! ohohoh, the coolest part about the 5-day trg schedule is that if we happen to be lagging behing in our school work or unclear concepts, we can approach the department and they will send a teacher to teach us!HOW GREAT CAN THAT BE.my my my.

however, GOD IS STILL THE GREATEST. i think all these are arranged by Him,for he knows what i am and truly want. knows that i've been trying hard all these years for. and i will continue to believe in him for he has given me so much hope and motivation in 2007.

Matthew 19:26 "with men this is impossible,but with God all things are possible"
and i truly belive that if i have the faith, i will receive.
Praise the Lord!

CONDITIONING

2007-02-22T05:10:00.000-08:00

first training after a week.
and my physical ability on court is lousy like siao

so today is conditioning day.
it was so tough OK, my thighs and calf muscles are literally NUMB and DISABLED.
well,i deserved it because the stupid CAIJUNJIE went to CYCLE 10km in 20mins. and RUN 3.79km in 20mins(which is rather slow though). im such a NOOB shit who is unable to stick to my plans.HIAS.and i failed to push myself to the limit.its so disappointing.
on the lighter note,i've tried.so its still not so bad.

AND MY NOSE BLEED TODAY,for no reason.and its not the 1st time this week alrdy.oh man.i think i might have cancer!HAHAHAHAH

anw,im in OG 6!=DDD

in my life.

2007-02-20T06:58:00.000-08:00

phew, CNY is finally over. this year is indeed a routine year and im going to accelerate. i actually went out to study with my d6 people!though it last for only bout 1hr.HHAHA. tsk tsk.the post CNY mood is still haunting me,but its going to be over very soon. tmr will be a nice day to study.yay! then we went PANSIRI's house to FEAST on SPAGETTI and TOM YAM SOUP. goodness, freakingly delicious PLUS HANA KIMI.WAH,its the best day of CNY. ohoh and before that, we watch NORBIT. its disgustingly FUNNY. all should watch course you guys will suffer the aftershock of the movie!LOL.

anyway, test is coming up. SO I BETTER GET MY ASS MOVING.

in humiliation we learn.
talk is cheap so i must show results.
2007 is the chance. Jesus is the life, the way, the truth.
and i know God will aid me.
thank you Lord.

the great expectations.

2007-02-15T08:45:00.000-08:00

THE GREAT EXPECTATIONS

today is THURSDAY and sigh, LAST DAY OF TRAINING! because breaking for CNY.SIAN MAN. i really loveeeee training with coach hayden.hes soo nice and good!wahahahahaha.im glad that i didnt leave JJC. and you know what, being the 3rd singles in JJC is tough.my teacher and coach have high expectations of me cos they really really lack players as im the only J1 guy staying in JJ badminton.wahpiang eh lo. then today they sort of finalise those playing for this year alrdy then wah, i cant play doubles cos coach says its too late for me to make the switch!sian,that benjamin shouldnt have went AC then can pair w me mah! then mr seah said," JUNJIE, you have to train very hard ah!"
his words i tell you,is like WOW,its going to impact on my life man. all the more i should train even harder.
but so far,im quite happy at the way im pushing myself to my limit every training session. it feels tiring and energy sapping.However it feels soo good to complete all the drills.

i tried to "brainwash" gwen goh(GG) today ,into staying into JJC by reasoning the theory behind primary school's excellence and secondary sec's sucky-ness. and she agreed with me.Hopefully she can get her parents to agree with my theory too!but im just worried for her CCA because she said jj dance is not very good, so i dont know lah.but still i hope that she stays!!! so GG liao!

and SILVER LEE YING HAO IS THE COOLEST PERSON ON EARTH.
he knows a THOUSAND of my friends.and he randomed my blog. PLUS hes in my LG! that is amazing. her sister is in rv and has the same birthday as me..so i can conclude that ALL 28/03/1990 babies are SMART BABIES. i mean ALL!!

i think i should stop now cos its getting late and i think today's LEADERS meeting is freaking toot and lame.

JJ BADMINTON IS THE BEST!

aftershock-effects of the O'level results

2007-02-10T01:16:00.000-08:00

this entry shall be called, "aftershock-effects of the O'level results"
hahaha,i just submitted my application to JJC=D. Although i faced peer pressure and the temptation to go to a so called "better" JC, i kept my stand strong!This is because i really love my JJC badminton team! and of course the promise i made. i really do not like to break promises because we are talking about trust here. i faced a HUGE dilemma when i received my result, 12-3=9pts. People were telling me that this decision affects my future! and they were telling me to go AC,SA or CJ. sigh. well, what i feel that is if i really work hard and go to a good uni,who cares about your jc?anw,my life is alrdy so hectic alrdy and if i spend somemore time travelling i'll drop dead. so my final decision is made-JJC.i'll pia all my internal organs out.i'll gather all the strength and God's strength, harness them and pave out a bright future for myself.i'll keep the promise to find a part time job during the june or dec hols this yr.cos i really need some exposure!anw, kunjie me and tonny are christians in the team!woo.thats cool man.

now to subject combi.SIGH. i really duno how cause i missed by a point to 4h2.and i dont know which contrasting subject to take!SERIOUSLY.econs is out of my interest.geog is getting boring.china studies feels scary.(and i dont know if i can take it). a BIGGER SIGH when angelina and yilun might not be staying in JJC.what will my future class be like agn!

i really want to be myself but sometimes i really dont like the way i behave.im trying very hard to change.im afraid of the eyes of judgement.where has all my courage to face everyone gone to.

i quite like the china people for we share the same passion.but its also difficult for me to communicate w them for i have low confidence in my chinese language ability. and hahaha,i can actually take CHINESE LANGUAGE ELECTIVE.wow,i do hv some profiency in chinese man.

okay,i'll stop all these for this worries would be solved very soon.i'll find a way.

TODAY,saturday.WOSH.is the ultimate trg session.ultra tiring.so tiring i wanted to cry after i finished the whole thing.its an accomplishment man.i hadnt been trg up till that level for a very very very long time.the time when i push myself again and again. In this way,i know i will improve somehow in the long run.well,theres still the lack of speed in my play again.im am seriously a fart-tard in speed.amazingly slow.sigh sigh sigh.

I WILL WORK EVEN HARDER.

oh,and all the best to sinee who has decided to go poly!and of course others who just got their results yesterday!

anw,i want to thank ms chew sooo much because i got B3 for english.normally,i will get c5,b4. furthermore,i flunked my paper 1 and i really thought that its the end of me.this is sooo suprising.even more shocking is my sshist got b3 and higher chi-b3. WOW WOW WOW.all these louya subs i actually passed them and got a decent grade.hahhaa but im really disappointed by both my a2 sciences.
summary,
eng-b3
sshist-b3
amths-b3
higher chi-b3
chi-b3
cca-b3
no. of b3s-6
physics-a2
chem-a2
no.of a2s-2
emths-a1
geography-a1
no.of a1s-2

so this officially ends my secondary school days.

the end.

and jj life begins......

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25S JURONG JUNIOR COLLEGE (SCIENCE) (JURONG JUNIOR COLLEGE)
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22A ANGLO-CHINESE JUNIOR COLLEGE (ARTS) (ANGLO-CHINESE JUNIOR COLLEGE)
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22S ANGLO-CHINESE JUNIOR COLLEGE (SCIENCE) (ANGLO-CHINESE JUNIOR COLLEGE)
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27S NATIONAL JUNIOR COLLEGE (SCIENCE) (NATIONAL JUNIOR COLLEGE)
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28S RAFFLES JUNIOR COLLEGE (SCIENCE) (RAFFLES JUNIOR COLLEGE)
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25A JURONG JUNIOR COLLEGE (ARTS) (JURONG JUNIOR COLLEGE)
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30S ST ANDREW'S JUNIOR COLLEGE (SCIENCE) (ST ANDREW'S JUNIOR COLLEGE)
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21A ANDERSON JUNIOR COLLEGE (ARTS) (ANDERSON JUNIOR COLLEGE)
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21S ANDERSON JUNIOR COLLEGE (SCIENCE) (ANDERSON JUNIOR COLLEGE)
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28A RAFFLES JUNIOR COLLEGE (ARTS) (RAFFLES JUNIOR COLLEGE)
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24S HWA CHONG INSTITUTION (SCIENCE) (HWA CHONG INSTITUTION)
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30A ST ANDREW'S JUNIOR COLLEGE (ARTS) (ST ANDREW'S JUNIOR COLLEGE)

we need to have routines!

2007-02-04T06:14:00.000-08:00

i'll have to blog today very very quickly becos i still have chem tutorial 2 to do!!

ok i'll begin! OH hi joelynn,thank you for visiting my blog!If you have a blog,do drp your link here!

i bought my bible today and this marks the start of getting involved more w Christianity! I gotta know more about Him!Thnks to christine and josh,i can start reading more abt Him! well,i have to do some planning now!anyway, i love today's service!it rocked so much lo!!=DDoh and i hope that i have the time to go SOW if i can get in! i simply love Heart Of God Church!it will certainly accelerate this year!

well, tmr is monday and im looking forward to seeing my fellow JJcians again!

oh ya,i forgot to talk about yesterday's Love Fiesta! ITS FUN,though its ultra tiring!hahaha.Being a rides coordinator is so fun!much better than dng stall duty!hahaha.i sat bout 6-8 rides free.sit soo much until my bums gng to rot and bruised like mad!HAHHAHA.i really enjoyed the time spent tgt with some of my LG people!and the super top dancer earned like mad lah.cos theres SO many ppl than sat the ride!SO POPULAR.initially we still had to beg ppl to sit.LOL. how ironical.

anyway,my stall managed to sell away all the sandwiches and i think i'll stop here!!

For the Lord,i'll push myself to work harder each day!I'll learn to play the guitar well too,so that i can praise God better! And i know that my voice isnt that nice,so i'll just to make it sound nicer ok!

Job 42:5
"I have heard of You by the hearing of the ear,but now my eye sees You"
hope that one day i can see You too!anw this was from the last service and i just copied down the verse!=D

so near yet so far!

2007-02-01T06:25:00.000-08:00

HELLO PEOPLE.

today is thursday and its meant to be a training day but i tio scammed by the leaders' dry for love fiesta! they said its 5-6 but it end up to be at 730!WHAT THE HELL. im sooooooo pissed cos i missed 1h30mins of my trg! TSK TSK TSK. then coach hayden so HIONG.ask me do defence for 2omins.its so sudden and tiring. i seriously need to work alot on my agility.it might have work during sec 2 but not anymore!
hiaz then i ALMOST lost to joel. sucks 24-22 lah. just abit then i'll lose.Though i prayed very hard at the verge of losing when he caught up w me.but i think its just plain LUCK for me to win.i need more trgs and more of You. theres much that i dont agree w Christianity but deep down i can feel His presence.that only can make me trust that Christianity is real.
ok i shall stop this cos yilun will think that im trying to brainwash him or whatsoever stuff!
anw i wanted to say that is MY TEAMMATES ACTUALLY STAYS ONE BLOCK AWAY FROM ME!WAHAHAHAHA.THATS SOO COOL. and i love mixing around with China people! lalalalala, im building networks here and there alrdy!thats soo goood!
oh oh i wana take h3 chemistry!!!I WANT.but i'll be ultra BUSY.hahha.BUT I LIKE.

OH MY GOODNESS.i forgot that i hv guitar lesson tmr!SHUCKS.

another week.

2007-01-30T04:26:00.000-08:00

wow,i actually survived MONDAY. But didnt quite the way i behaved today cos i almost lost temper which i hadnt done so for the past few months alrdy.well, its ALMOST. So its alright!hee,actually i cant think of alot of things to say becuase its only yilun thats pressing me to write entries!hahaha
ok lah,i've decided to join VENTURE(s)? under the peer pressure of angelina and yilun. hope it will be ultra fun!then again,i'll be evern busier than before so ms ho will scold me for giving lousy excuses. She's just so cruel.ROAR.

ok lah,tmr sixuan is crashing my school and its her birthday tmr! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HER IN ADVANCE.

i love Heart Of God Church but im not ready to do my part there. anyway, D4 ppl are very nice=D and i simply love JJC. and my class.(excluding jiahao=/) i'll be damn sad the day i leave jj lo!

oh to end off, i think all people should try to embrace the Jurong Culture!

ENDURE and PRESS ON.

2007-01-25T06:29:00.000-08:00

tsk,im lacking that spirit.
today's trg wasnt so good since i lost all the matches i played.even those that i should have done so.

so im making a mark here to keep track of my progress.

LOST 2 MATCHES.

ok lets continue.

BADMINTON IS MY LIFE,MY GAME/PASSION and MY GLORY.
and i just love JJC. and its team!
anw my class will be SELLING CUPCORN and SANDWICHES during love fiesta.SIGH.how boring can that GET!still,EVERYBODY SHOULD PATRONISE OUR STALL. PLEASE SHOW YOUR SUPPORT!

anw,i feel so stupid.coach hayden told me boonlay SECONDARY SCHOOL and i heard it as boonlay CC.LOL!!IM SUCH A NOOBSHIT!then i wasted 30mins at boonlay cc slping.GOODNESS.hahahahahahahaha. HOWEVER,its not my fault!he pointed in the boonlay cc direction and he said its near here.the cc is the nearer than the school of course i assumed its there mah!HAIZ. ITS FUNNY SO EVERYBODY PLEASE LAUGH.
and i missed a training session just like that.
=(

YIPEE.

2007-01-20T00:05:00.000-08:00

the toughest part of the week is finally over. WHEW.i love this kind of lifestyle man but i dont know ow long can i sustain this way. Although its really energy sapping, i really really enjoy this kind of fatigue.
i went back to RV to play/semi-train/look at my juniors. Its really heartwarming when these guys saw me and shouted "HELLO JUNJIE/CICAK!" loudly. I really love them alot and they are really very supportive towards me as the BOUGHT tons of JJ fiesta tickets from me!woo hoo! After which we had dinner together and its nice to get together after quite some time.Too bad that im the only senior there.Its even more disappointing when i cannot make it for their monday match. WELL, THEY HAVE MY SUPPORT HERE!
OOH ya,i love my new classmates now except for one. They are nice people and i saw junhao at the dinner place.hahaha.hes a bitch!cos he scolded me bastard!

Okay,i'll talk more about today!WHICH IS SATURDAY.tiring day again!Training was-TOUGH. The drills arnt exactly deathly but i cant get my forehand push RIGHT. Coach hayden tried his best to correct me but i dont seem to get it right. I will try again and again! Oh,i did the drill with tonny and i found out that his actually abit of a slacker!haha. However, he is damn good lah. Then after which i did the drills with yifan. Shes quite pro leh! Just that she can be rather slow sometimes but i LOST to her lah.i keep on getting tricked by her little movements here and there! 23-11.such disgrace sia. BUT NEVERMIND.next time it will be different! after that,we did PT AGAIN. HOLY SHIT. Bridging for 1minx4 , 20 push ups x4 , 20 superman-ups? x4 and 20chicken backsidex4 is madness. My body is aching AGAIN lah.
then after i wenta eat bak chor mee with kunjie,tonny and jessica. hahaha,they are funny and cool people lah. I TOOK THE BUS IN THE WRONG DIRECTION in my turf.I AM SUCH A NOOB LAH.then when i got down i knocked into a person cycling.goodness,he did not suffer from injuries if not i'll be damn guilty.LOL.

wednesday will be a very very tiring day for me because, 720am-1pm(lessons), 3-6pm( training @ boonlay cc), 720-920(jap lesson). wow man.its a nightmare! but i'll embrace nightmares!HAHAHA!

ok lah,i think i will stop here!since i have work to do!byebye!
-jj you make my life complete!

jj you make my life complete!

2007-01-13T05:42:00.000-08:00

wow, i think i falling in love with jjc lah.

i went for sat's trg and i must admit that it was ultra tough cos my body is now aching like crazy! mr xia is such a nice person and i cannot let him down! oh the coach is hayden the boonlay coach!but he'll be only here for the 1st 3months only:( hes also a nice person!
anyway mr xia told me that there would be yonnex shoes and jersey + MAYBE nalgene water bottles too! WAH.i'll drool at the sight of those items can!hahahaha.

alvin lum was telling me that he got treated for a drink for watching the principal and teachers play badminton.lol. but i got treated on thursday alrdy!hes so noob to discover it only now.

im looking forward to more trgs!i love it i love it i love! the seniors are very friendly too!but i feel very stressed to trn with the J2s cos i feel damn noob there!the drills are so different from welly's but more similar to dicky's! AWWW,i really miss him man!

i cant find time to go back RV and trn leh.TOO BUSY!

i keep singing the song, AHHH AHH AHH! jj you make my life complete....I LOVE JJ=D

ORIENTATION 2007!

2007-01-11T06:04:00.000-08:00

WAHAHAHA,

sorry everyone for not blogging for sooooo long and i know you guys are DYING to see what am i gng to write for this entry!HAHHAHA,because its been such a tiring and exhausive week!so i didnt get to blog!anyway, this entry wouldnt be very long as i do not have soo much time left!

at first,when i said i was gng jjc i dno why ppl tend to give a weird reply and you know those eyes that are depising you(applies to some ppl only) because i know my best friends all respect my decision!i really really believe that i will make my mark in jjc.it has offered me ample opportunties to do so!and i shall start now!

well well well, when i first came into JJC for admin and the camp,i was rather astounded by their ULTRA high-ness i really mean HIGH. then i looked around at my OG mates and they looked really dead.then i decided not to be the odd one out because you know,a RVian gng to JJ is alrdy very say unique or indifferent liao,though theres alot of RVians lah,hahaha. but after everything i really regretted not participating in the activities using my MAXIUM HIGH-NESS.but theres still a bit of that high part lah,hahah. this camp is not just to play but more importantly,it teaches and make us benefit from it. JJ orientation camp is indeed very good :). but, nxt yr i will be even better becos i've decided to be an OGL!hehehe.

OH I HVNT TOLD YOU GUYS THAT I WILL BE STAYING IN JJC FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.

even if i get 6 pts,i will still stay in jj.because i owe jj.now, im in jj badminton team and they hv decided to groom me.the trgs i gurantee you guys,its tough(considering that i hadnt been that fit yet). oh,in jj its totally different from that of RV. its sooo much better.passion and effort comes first.and the teachers there LOVE BADMINTON. GOSH,even the principal loves badminton.he plays it every single day. IMAGINE MS EK.GROSS.

anyway my trgs on monday, thursday and saturday.+ jap classes on monday and wednesday.woosh im loving JC life.

i've learnt to appreciate those ppl around me.
&junwen(josh),daniel and kunjie are very good jokers.

GANBATTE everyone!

2007.

2006-12-31T00:32:00.000-08:00

today is the last day of 2006. & im loving it.
2006, not brillant and not too bad. at least i acheived something and not like 2005,the damned year.however,it is also a year filled with much disappointment.
now, 31/12/2006 ,16:39. i look forward to the arrival of 2007 with much anticipation. Because theres You in my heart. Believing is such an immerse strength from within. It will be soooo much different from now on. Thats because He gives me hope, confidence and determination. And i need them for my future.

I was clearing up my old stuff just now and the sweetness of the past just rushed into my mouth.i could taste them.I was such a fanatic of badminton.All the pain and fun of it were dugged out instanteously,hahaha.Theres also messages from my previous relationship and its so mushy but i like it.hahaha.
& i looked so tiny and childish last time when i looked at the year book.gosh,is that me? its so unbelievable.time really flies. im 16 now.all grown up and ready to face the world in few years' time. theres this page where i drew on my ek's face and it looked like shit.hahaha.
then after i cleared everything,i've decided to make my 2007 a brillant one.i shant waste anymore time.i MUST make my mark. i know i can do it with Him around me all the time.

-this time ,there is no room for excuses.
The embarkment starts on 3/1/2007. 2006 ends tonight. the year of pig-LOVE IT!

THE kl trip!

2006-12-07T18:39:00.000-08:00

hello people!m back frm the kl trip although i din want to COME BACK!its SO FUN there,i dont mind staying there like FOREVER SIA!HAHAHA.all those people who didnt go are really sad ppl!HAHA.i only missed my handphone, PSP and computer!HAHAHA.

DAY 1
we reached MBA roughly at ard 3pm or so and before reaching it,i saw this ultra huge YONEX sign and i went, HEY THATS MY SPONSOR!i wana visit it!, as i thought i was some kind of badminton manufacturing plant with all the coolest badminton gadgets in it!THEN, I FOUND OUT IT WAS MBA!i was SOOOO DAMN EXCITED.i went in and WOW, there are 32 COURTS!the largest badminton hall in M'sia!it was in slangor.the height of the building is sooo high that it will NOT affect the shuttle's path at all! when we got into our bunks, i found out that our aircon is SPOILT.IT BLOWS HOT AIR!HAHAHA.then we changed from room 2 to room 9!room 9 is HUGE.it is meant for 5ppl only but 3 of us(me,guohao and xiaojun) got to use it!however,it was only TATAMEs or TILUMs in S'pore.then we just played loh!

DAY 2
It was terror day for me! i aint conditioned for hiong trgs,so i was rather worn out and had muscle aches here and there.it was terrible,but at least i got to eat DIM SUMS!really nice and cheap!WAHAHAHA.HAR GAO RULES!then at night it was KFC.so boring.lunch was ku lu rice!all together,not more than RM 20 bucks!ANYWAY,we learnt STRATEGIES!yes,these are what i lack in badminton! there was this attacking front then sudden back attack(70% vs 30%) and vice versa,depending on u and ur opponent.i have yet to apply this effectively:(but i will try my best to polish up!oh then theres the fast game,by disabling the front area.i think it could be used for those who are weaker at the back.OH THE COACHES ARE JIVA AND (NARISH?),THEY ROCK!

DAY 3
its a sunday and we trained!i cant exactly rmb what happened but i think that we learnt more more game play like foot setting and neutral position.then i got the chance to talk to qimin and share our experience tgt loh.we are really poor things lah!i rmb that we are all very healthy people as we bought tons of fruits,milk and healthy stuff!Anna chan loves the stuff that i eat loh!hahaa!ITS FUN! and i kept listening to SEXYBACK!and CLEMENT IS SUCH A JOKER.DIXUN IS LIKE SIYUAN + WEIRONG.lol! juniors are so nice.hahaha.

DAY 4
i think this day we had friendly with MBA badminton.apparently this grp is not very grp de.we won overall! and i think at night, there was M'sia NATIONAL PLAYERS exhibition match and they are sooo pro!it has fired up my passion for badminton once agn!i dont think i will ever stop badminton ANYMORE.there had been soo much peer influence this yr lah,but i think i will still revert back to badminton!hehehehe.OH YA,the ANG MO KIO ppl came and turned the place upside down,becuase almost the whole team came?ard 25+ ppl loh.we only had 14+2.

DAY 5
we had trg in the morn and i think we went sunway in the afternoon!ITS SO BROING,only the part that i went foot reflexology rocks!OH YA,I SAT ON I-GALLOP!SOO FUNNY!HAHAHAHA.

DAY 6
IT was the last day,so i was DAMN SAD.but we had two friendly matches, 1 in the morning and 1 in the afternoon.we had SO MUCH FUN.this grp was much much closer to our standards and i had some problems fighting back lah.i felt that my mental strength and physical strength had very much increased as i really had the time and space to think of what to do and polish up my skills.in s'pore i seldom get that luxury of time:(.the ppl there really had the passion to play badminton.what was i actually dng last year, wasting my time here!and now,im waiting for the m'sia ppl to add me on MSN!even the coaches are very passionate leh!

DAY 7
HOME!SO SIAN.

this trip has really inspired me to do better in badminton and to follow my dreams.i am myself!i shud do what i really wnt!nothing is impossible.seriously.the ppl in m'sia did it,so can i.i just have to believe in myself.

badminton is not a game.badminton is a war.FIGHT TO WIN.OR STRUGGLE AND LOSE.

WHHEEE

2006-11-24T04:09:00.000-08:00

SORRY!i've been ULTRA busy these few days and i simply couldnt use the com!HAHAHA ENJOYING!
these few days i've been gyming,tanning(abit only) and badminton-ing!SO SHOIK!hahaha and yes shopping for my prom stuff.i've gotten everything liao,just left more 1.i cant reveal anything thing about what i will be wearing cos it will spoil the fun.but it will be UNIQUE.yes NOBODY will wear the same thing as me except peilin cos she might be wearing with what i wear too,just that shes the girl version loh.IT WILL BE DAMN COOL.

and i guess i will be gng jjc for 1st 3months i think.1st two choices wun get chosen de lah!i dont wana talk about these sch stuff liao!so sian.i guess i will be gng to work after i return frm kl trip!
TATA.everybody enjoy!AND THANKS JOY,you have been such a nice thing!I LOVE YOUR ENCOURAGEMENTS!

aint...

2006-11-16T03:07:00.002-08:00

WOW. time flies although it has been an excruciating experience in this two weeks. Had to deal with sleeping for the 1st day of O's(ss and emths) and study for tedious subjects like geog,physics and chemistry. But WAH LAH. it wasnt that bad afterall! most questions were foundation questions for sciences which unfortunately i fail to rmb the whole definition, so i crapped a lot for those questions. Nonetheless, chem was ultra easy ( to me) and the rest is more or less fine. The only tough subject being ss.hist to me? hahaha

WELL, theres still history tmr and its so boring. can you imagine waiting for another 21hours before completing EVERYTHING. however, to me, ITS OVER.

lets celebrate man!HAHAHA

aint...

2006-11-16T03:07:00.001-08:00

aint...

2006-11-16T03:07:00.000-08:00

one more week!

2006-11-11T18:46:00.000-08:00

yupee dudies!
theres only one more week to go!
ss and english isnt that great.
but e.maths and geog p2 was easy!=DD
please please please let me get a 6,so that i can go to a very good jc!!
tata, goodluck everyone!

MOVE ALONG.

2006-10-31T04:55:00.000-08:00

"ALL YOU GOTTA KEEP IT STRONG, move along move along like i'll know you'll do"
" AND EVEN IF YOUR HOPE IS GONE, move along move along just to make it through"

this song is my new favorite song! Move along by The All-Amercian Rejects.this song really captivated my heart and make wana dance and sing-along! RULES.
well, i quite LOVE TODAY.i watched THE GUARDIAN with mel and line. The plot didnt really entice me into watching the movie, but well, in end out of boredom we watched it. today's chem prac is easy too.just a few slips i realised,at most -2.so haha 38/40!LOL.

anyway,frm the movie,i've learnt what is true determination and the spirit one has in order to save one's life.ultra touching! everyone should watch it!

TO THOSE WHO MAY SURVIVE THROUGH THE O's. NEVER GIVE UP. A FEW MORE DAYS, AN EXTRA EFFORT, WE'LL ALL PASS THE FINISH LINE WITH AMAZING AND AWESOME RESULTS.
i thereby bless all you guys! way to go! let's MOVE ALONG :)

well...

2006-10-28T05:16:00.000-07:00

its been so confusing.
well,im trying my best to focus on studies.
everybody lets work hard and go your dream jc!
hope that i can.

njc,acjc,jjc!

THIS TELLS YOU STH.

2006-10-16T04:20:00.000-07:00

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updates.

2006-10-13T05:49:00.000-07:00

gosh.
i got 21(before moderation)for my l1r5 for prelims.even kian boon(ex cps classmate) was SHOCKED and lost for words for that moment when i told him today at JJC open house.how i wished that i could have done better for prelims.JJ isnt THAT bad as people tend to choose it as a last option.
im quite movtivated now.suprisingly.how i wished that the teachers could have been more kind and movtivate us more often.it is only at this point of time that the teachers become SO nice and make u wana study SO hard.joy is such a wonderful senior!she always encourage me at the right time.wow.fuel me with more energy anf make me more determined to strive for what i want.there have been SO MANY times that i felt like dropping badminton when i enter jc.but when i think of JOY,i CANNOT and WILL NOT do so.this is a promise.and hopefully i can hv 2 ccas!woots.i love shooting club and mayb archery(cuz i hvnt tried yet).i will decide everything when i go more open houses tmr.JJ will be a choice.
so now i can only pray that the teachers will LOVE ME LIKE CRAZY and moderate me score LIKE MAD.i need em to -9pts + the bonus pts,i will able to make it to acjc!hahahaha.though it is highly IMPOSSIBLE.=(
life without cca can be rather boring.no,IT IS BORING.
and im not very happy that the most OUTSTANDING cca member of badminton is KOHKAHNENG.what has she done to make herself that OUTSTANDING?
can someone define outstanding?must a vice captain neccessarily be outstanding?he or she need not b able to lead what.ridiculous adward.

i will rather the recipient be guohao or sherman.but i would choose guohao.he is really a very humble person and TOTALLY has NO MOOD SWINGS.i can see that he really puts in effort in badminton.he and sherman really worked very hard.as for me,i dont deserve it.since june2005,i dont very that very drive to work ULTRA hard and forget the pain during training.all i think of was that training is TEDIOUS.that makes me unable to improve as much as the two of em.but guohao would not succumb under pressure and he is very calm.i dont rmb once that he performed way below expectations.this is what i truly feel.guohao really deserves the award more than anyone else.he is what i call OUTSTANDING.

today is the last day of secondary school life.supposedly.=(its like SO SAD.

RANDOM.

2006-09-28T03:48:00.000-07:00

life's kinda getting kinda mundane now..
i know there's a purpose in life but it's just so sian that i want to end it peaceful?
why am i talking in such a manner?
cos i wana die;die for the efforts i put into this prelims.
i desperately want to get into acjc,but i guess that i failed to do so.(for prelims)
but i strongly believe and will always believe that life is wonderful.i will NEVER try to end it.

well,i just cant stop whining.so,i'll try to stop my bad habit!

and kimberley yeo,pls read my previous entry coz u hvnt a.t.q

OH HI!

2006-09-17T01:53:00.000-07:00

tsk tsk tsk!

thanks to ng xiao wei (the great?) i'm able to use blogspot without much hassle!since so many people says eblog sucks and blogger is like so good,i shall try out!

heeh.its been 1wk since i last blog,cuz of stupid prelims which made me so tired.anyway,my computer's down too(such great timing).

well.im feeling damn fat now because i have not been exercising much!and too much good food eh!im deprived of movies and fun things,and im DYING. like a zombie perhaps!luckily im left with 4days before i can take a short break!then the O's.how long more can i survive?argh.im looking forward to diving ,archery ,hiphop and jap course already.=/

just hope that i can do real well in this prelims!

and oh yea,HELLO KIMBERLEY.

long time no see(still hvnt see)lol.i cannot contact you leh.u changed ur hp no. issit?

& u din go back to cps on teachers' day eve!wahlao!

@$%^&*()$$%#

u deserve some scolding if u cannot explain urself!

IM BLOODY ANGRY.

because i CANNOT apply for UOB TX Account. sucksss like hell!this is due to;

What are the requirements?

Above 16 years old up to 21 years old
An initial deposit of S$100 for Singaporeans/ Permanent Residents/ Non-Singaporeans

so im ONLY able to apply for the Junior Savers Account

Account must be opened as a Joint account with the parent
Your child must be aged 16 and below
An initial deposit of S$500
and it's->Just for kids

(THATS THEIR slogan for this acct can!)

im SO pissed.

2006-09-15T22:46:00.000-07:00

testing 1 2 3 (:

Jesus Reigns!

AFTER A'S!!

from good to great.

plans after A's

progesss.in the Name of Christ.

imperfections.

spiritual food

blessed be the name of the Lord

THOUGHTS ARE BUILT UPON THESE

trust God.

getting serious

i know im going to make it.

with God's touch.

our lives...its more than what you see.

sins

what do you live for

BADMINTON.-end

im over it

season starts...

an ever burning fire.

excitement.

thou shall not.

badminton stuff

crucify self-fishness

tuesdays with morrie

RENEWED

WHEN CHEERI COMES

Vacation Bible School

11/12/07

power within

PROPHETS

dwell in Your presence!

Ezekiel

darkness

where were You?

SO LONG.AFTER PROMOS

badminton.

revelation!

BE INSPIRED!

im overcoming the worst tribulation of my life, bit by bit! its really tough, but im TOUGHER. devil. go BACK TO HELL.

self esteem!

inertia

POST COMMON TEST

life's extremeeeely ()

OI YILUN.

school!

cause i know that You're alive!

GO SEE CHEERI'S BLOG FOR THOSE WHO HAVNT SEEN IT!

im going to purposely upload pics today at SBH.siya dint allow me to do so,BUT IM GNG TO DO IT ANW.HAHAHA

MUG

ITS TIME TO START MUGGING.guess what,i only have 5days left.this is MADNESS. hahahaEVERYONE PLEASE CHECK OUT CHEERI'S BLOG.ON HER PICS OF HER MUM AND DAD.ITS SUPER COOL.

i used to be THIS.

june hols.

pre u sem 07

busy

whatsup!

jc life + Jesus!

I NEED TO PLAN MORE! to increase my capacity to do more work!YES MORE WORK!

,,,,,

woah

thank you.

my birthday!

OG 6

wednesday is also a killer.

CONDITIONING

in my life.

the great expectations.

aftershock-effects of the O'level results

we need to have routines!

so near yet so far!

another week.

ENDURE and PRESS ON.

YIPEE.

jj you make my life complete!

ORIENTATION 2007!

2007.

THE kl trip!

WHHEEE

aint...

aint...

im going to purposely upload pics today at SBH.siya dint allow me to do so,BUT IM GNG TO DO IT ANW.

HAHAHA

ITS TIME TO START MUGGING.
guess what,i only have 5days left.
this is MADNESS. hahaha

EVERYONE PLEASE CHECK OUT CHEERI'S BLOG.
ON HER PICS OF HER MUM AND DAD.
ITS SUPER COOL.

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